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Sunday, June 22, 2008 @ 9:44 pm
june holidays 2008the heading says it, time now is 946pm, tmr will be the first day of school, and i feel like asking for more grace, not that i have not rested enough, but more of that i cant bear to leave this comfortable period i have been accustomed to now and hopefully this entry will help me to pack up all the emotions and inertia and i can prepare for my final exams. A levels. in a blink of an eye, it's already 22nd of June. seems like ytd that i ended my school term and told myself, 'junkai, u need to mug during june.' but turns out that ive not accomplished anything, and on top of that, im not mugging now but instead im blogging. but i feel this compelling need to get this steam off me if not i will feel very bogged down. first, lets start off with my China trip. if anyone asked my how was China, i think my immediate response would be, it's dirty. yes it is not very clean but it has it's perks, like, the cheap stuff there, the macs cost like max S$5 there, and u get the whole meal la. and the bags, wallets, shoes, all are dirt cheap. but i had to contend with the locals there who are so close to us in those narrow shopping lanes, and like all humans do perspire, the smell is memorable. in addition i think that due to their easy accessibility to tobacco, the locals love to smoke everywhere, in hotel lobbies, shopping centres, toilets, streets, and it seems like a necessity there. i guess that is one of their escapes in life. however, the humanitarian side in me feels empathy and sympathy towards them. poverty is still an issue in China, the trip to China made me feel that i am really really lucky and blessed to be a Singaporean citizen, education, family, the advantageous climate here has made me into a more informed person than an average Chinese citizen. i must say that not all children in china gets a education, and they have let me see a different side other than those negative images that my previous posts have portrayed. they are made up of what we are too, but the difference between us and them is that some of them are poorer, and have to forgo the education which some of us take for granted of, and due to their poverty have to resort to many methods to ensure their own survival. like eating whatever they can lay their hands on, selling whatever they can, making whatever they think can sell, or begging, borrowing, and stealing. talking about begging, i must confess that i am really a spineless worm. I was at the China's streets and i saw this hunched back beggar lying on the floor asking for some money, i felt the prompting that i should give some of my money. i checked my wallet, there's only a $100 renmingbi note. = to SGD$20. i asked my cousin and my guide whether to give some spare money, the guide said, these beggars earn alot. and i was just dumbfounded. i didn't retaliate, maybe the subconscious me is thinking that it is a good excuse not to give. but now i think that it isn't. another incident, at the airport, i was greeted by beggars during my last day at Guangzhou, they asked for money, but someone around me rejected them and told us this, u give them some, they will ask for more. so now im thinking, issit that i can only give them some, and i cant afford to give them more? or is giving only limited to giving what u can spare, and not giving your all to help some more? but at that time i alr spent all my money, cant give any anyways. but i felt bad, really bad. so this trip to China has made me realise how lucky i am, and has increased my tolerance for the Chinese nationals in singapore, for it is who they are for behaving in how they behave. and i met this nice ice cream shop guy, he's a working teen, think older than me by 3 years? he asked me how i found china and was really friendly, another was this woman, my mother felt giddy and she let us sit down in her shop. good ppl are everywhere, but usually the bad get more of our attention. next, homework, i didn't do any, hopefully i can finish them up someday, but i have never done holiday hw since sec 2, im really lazy. i think this post is enough, photos up soon! and the end of the holidays marks the start of the mugging, 2 hours a day, hope i don have to retake a levels. (: thanks for reading. and really if u are a singaporean thinking of migrating to a better place, a corny phrase to share, 'there is no place like home.' (: bb! MUG HARD
Sunday, June 01, 2008 @ 10:37 pm
indecision makes shitty days.shit
@ 9:18 pm
one day, i'll make nothing matter. shake off all the shackles that bound me to the world.i guess that day will most probably be the day that i die. =/ |
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