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Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 10:00 pm
my friend told me today, live your life without regrets, then heres the big question, how to?my mother told me, she has never seen me 'du shu' (read book) thru the night before. i told my mother, i have lor, harry potter! she said it's not studying, must study those that are taught in school. now im thinking, do we live to study or am i merely studying to live. it is true, if i don study, my future in singapore is gna be bleak. (im not gna say what your parents always tell you, or if u are a parent, u know the lecture abt how studying is good for your future.) but, my question is, how do u want to live your life? if i were to, be like my friend, live life without regrets, shouldn't i study hard now, and have a bright future, provided i get good grades ya? but, do i only live to live a good life? for eventually i'll die. what do i want out of a stable life, growing up to be a young adult, going to NS, university, career, retirement, death. which phase of my life am i working to? or is life about enjoying the process of death? im in doubt, for my religion would encourage me to live a different life, a life of spiritual development. yet that is not what i am going to live for. and with that in mind, i'll surely go to hell. so, from what i am now, till going to NS, university, career, retirement, death, there is another added phase of 'life', Heaven/Hell. but bearing that in mind, establishing a r/s with God is what is impt and why don we just die and go to Heaven/Hell. IF LIVING IS ABOUT LIVING LIFE WITHOUT REGRETS, AND THAT WHAT U DID, U KNEW U DID YOUR BEST. then why am i doing what i am doing now? i have many dreams to achieve before my right to live gets confiscated. i want to tour the world, see napoleon's statue, visit London bridge, see the Pyramids, scale the foot of the Alps, feed the wild animals in Africa, make friends with the China comrades, eat authentic sushi and udon. i want to make friends and make my friends i have now happy, i want to go for coffee sessions with them, i want to try clubbing with my cousins, i want to go pubbing with my 'brothers'. i want to make my parents happy and let them know that im not a bad son after all, i want to let them know that slogging hard to feed me is worth every damn penny. i want to marry my loved, i want her to experience all these with me, and more. i want to make her happy, and let her not regret as well. i want to go to Heaven, i want to know God, and be his forever. then, after doing all these, i want to die. then, living my life without regrets means dying with all your dreams accomplished, then why am i studying? shouldn't i be working parttime in France now? or perhaps in church? if God made all these wonderful things on Earth, shouldn't He let us enjoy them before he takes us away? if only, i could accomplish them, for if i do, im not gna regret my life. but sadly, im not dead yet, and theres so many chances for me to accomplish them, yet, God has given me the choice to choose, and i have to revise for econs now, as theres a test tmr, -.- what a letdown, and i feel much better. (: thanks for reading, i love the world. giraffes are cute. (: |
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