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reflections

2010-01-02T02:23:00.003+08:00

2009 came and went. and its the 2nd day of the year and well, maybe it's time to stop stopping myself from thinking and start reflecting on what ive done the past year. 2009, a bittersweet year, i should say, and many people walked into my life, though not all stayed. In a nutshell, 2009 was work, play, romance, separation, male bonding, politics, work(police), my first step into nightlife. it was one of the years where i feel, a certain part of me have changed. and i have outgrown some of my childhood fears, and acquired many bad practices.

people have stayed by me in my life, and some have left quickly, while some have left involuntarily. when i think of it now, a certain feeling kinda like the feeling u get when theres sth stuck in your throat and you feel awkward, but it feels good to me. at least i feel for something, and yes death came and robbed two good husbands, fathers, uncles, from many people's lives. one of whom is closer to me, though the other is related by blood. 2009, i will remember them dearly for the ones who were always there when u wanted to find them, i can remember still, when the market was still not renovated, he will always be there, sipping coffee, waiting for his friends, and always he will acknowledge my existence, and always welcome me in his life. and i was there when he was ill too, his quick descent into a state of dilapidation, his usual jovial smile, replaced with fake smiles of reassurance. seeing his wife, also breaks my heart, as of now, the empty bed, when usually the warmth of his body would always be there by her side, now replaced by the void, as with his body, now it's ashes. love and loss, without one, the existence of the other wouldn't be significant.

another loss, my love, i threw it away, for utter selfish reasons, maybe i was thinking with my prick at the moment i made the decision, or maybe i was really under severe pressure, from myself to be a good lover. (good as in virtuous) and maybe i didn't love from the start. tears were shed over that too. and unkind words, that she didn't deserve, were said. I know i was wrong, and i am wrong, yet i clearly know i had to be alone, to grow, to throw away my past pursuits, and to find my real calling. im sorry, i will treat you with what you deserve, but im sorry i still have to let things stay this way, and i really treasure your friendship.

National service made me many friends, some of whom are still in touch, some, have already left long ago. and im glad many of us are going to the same place after ord, and i have learnt many values from them, and i will always remember the first weekend we stayed in camp, polishing boots while talking about porn and stuff, it was amazing. i mean the moment, not the porn, and we did talk about other stuff.

Happiness, is it so hard to get? i always thought happiness comes when you are with friends, with pretty girls, with money, with the satisfaction of the body, no. I am really wrong. I felt happy recently, and it was of the moment, when i was talking to a fellow sadcase on the bus home, i told her i felt really fulfilled though it was just a brief conversation of 10 mins, and i know she didn't feel anything special about it, and (no i am not in love or in any way in love with her) but yup, i was happy.

i miss the times, though not many, the times when i can talk to someone, knowing that one understands, and listens, and feels what i was saying.

well, looking back in 2009. it really was more significant than i didn't think it would be.

rest in peace, Uncle papa, Da jiu.
i will always treasure the times i had with you, and both of you have been a role model to me, and i will always remember you.

Kelipng, i appreciate everything you've done for me, my 18, 19th birthdays, valentine day gifts, your love for me, i will remember, and i really am sorry to hurt you so much, maybe someday, when i have outgrown the boy i still am, i will face you again.

to myself, you know your mistakes, you know your flaws, please, be somebody.

2009-08-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

i wish to express myself.

2009-08-24T23:48:00.003+08:00

see and be seen

hear and be heard

feel and be felt

understand and be understood

like and be liked

love and be loved

so corny.

yet so real.

2009-08-24T22:33:00.002+08:00

I am Lim Jun Kai. I am using my computer at home in my own room, at Telok Blangah Crescent, in Singapore, Singapore is a city state, my room is my home. Telok Blangah, Jun Kai, Singapore, Singapore, Jun Kai, Telok Blangah. Names.

Goodbye BPT , Hello NPCO training.

2009-07-25T13:04:00.003+08:00

i realised that it has been so long since i've written something that blogger is gna remove my blog soon, and so the title says, basic police training at HTA is over and the three months felt like half a year, and im posted into Alpha division, that's in Cantoment, as a friendly neighbourhood police officer. okay cut the friendly part, anyway, this period has been remarkably unique, as apart from camps that ive attended, i have never like slept, ate, shat, in one place with my peers before, like, im the only child, so it's really interesting to see the changing countenences of people and how they react to different people.

i believe that in order to discover yourself, (as in knowing thyself) one has to put him/herself in a totally different environment, then, one will see how different/similar he is from the rest, and so letting one discover himself. i have made really awesome buddies in camp, whom i would not forget even though life is full of partings, and since 'meeting up soon' doesn't really happen all the time. back on discovering oneself, i have seen some people, they have what i call a formed/solid identity, which is he knows clearly who he is, where he stand, and have his beliefs and would not be swayed by words of others.

on the other hand, i have also seen some whose identity that are in flux, ie: they are easily swayed and coaxed into doing things by others.

yet, most people ive seen are in the middle, they have their convictions, and when they interact with others, they end up doubting their own convictions and that is true in my case. nonetheless, ive learnt selectively from others while some others are just bullcrap.

anyway, i am looking forward to NPCO training, although its gna be boring all over again, im sure it'll be good as i have my friends with me. all the best to all!

ps: i shld mention that im gna get a free driving licence. sponsored by our lovely garhment.

things i will miss after i go NS. ):

2009-04-05T03:27:00.002+08:00

not everyone in the picture, but u get the picture. (: (irene + joyce, i couldnt find any photos of you two, but anyway, thanks for going to hotpot with me, and planning the surprise, 看我！

vanessa sadly i couldn't get u to see me- see la wake up late, but yupp, the next time u see me im botak alr. =/ sad right?

sujing managed to see my last hair look, and thanks for coming to settlers to send me off. (: and don purposely celebrate on 7th april ah.

chalet- kickass drunkfest man. sounds gay but im gna miss these people man, hopefully i can still hang out with you ppl even after i get enlisted.

u know where u stand. (: and lets stay strong even though we cant be like tgt as often. take care of yourself when im not around, rmb to eat meat as well, don just eat half pack of rice. D : rest alot too, stay healthy and wait for me to come out! (:

seriously, 2 more days, till an entire change in my environment, right now im sitting on my bed, under my aircon, and hands on my laptop, 48 hrs later, i'll probably be on the bunk bed, .................. shit.

take care everybody.

original title of the post i have been planning for, 'best time of my life'

2009-03-13T00:13:00.004+08:00

'how about i don waste your time in your life anymore?'

that was your message i got from you just now. and i was intending to blog about this period being the best time of my life.

nonetheless i shall go ahead with my post.

this is the time, where i have everything i want, and ever, yes thank God for making this good life for me. (: why do i say this is the best time of my life, because the road ahead is the route which all 'medically fit' Singaporean males have to walk. and that would mean leaving the comfort of my friends, family, all the luxury i enjoy now, and mostly leaving Keli for physical training, male bonding, and toughening up my physical and mental and emotional stamina. Hopefully i will come out of it tougher than i was before, and to see all that i have still with me.

family, friends, money, love, and a not bad result for my A's.

family: mum and dad have been extra nice to me recently, so no complaints, and irene, lets meet up before i go NS. (:

friends: been having chats and outings at pubs and jogging tgt. hopefully the plan to hold the chalet succeeds. Bryan pls gather the horde for the chalet and if possible ask the girls to join. (can share cost) hahahah.

money: thanks to work at tivoli audio, i have sufficient money to finance my spending. (:

love: i say it's like heaven or hell when im with you, heaven because you just make me feel happiness ive never felt before; all the things we did together, Hans, working together and donuts after work, attending the open houses tgt, swimming, we seem to do everything together, and i don know if it's healthy, i cant help but i feel this strong dependence on you. Yet it feels so good to depend on you, and know even if the whole world crumbles and lies, you are true. and this is how i feel now, and i hope that this feeling will last.

hell in the sense that because im so attached to you, whenever we fight and quarrel, it just feels so lonely, and i am like without having something to look forward the next morning, and yeah, ive already told you, my phone's photos are all pictures of you. well, maybe im not a frequent user of my phone camera, but yeah, we meet each other almost every other day, and yeah, some might say it's unhealthy for a couple to meet daily; the feelings will fade into normalcy or even monotony, but i think otherwise, sorry if i offend anyone else but i have to say i only feel at ease when im talking and conversing with you, and even if it's my buddies, i have some fear of saying something to hurt them and it is really mentally straining for me, someone with a blunt tongue, thats why i usually hold my piece, although my facial expressions betray me. anyway, you make me feel comfortable, and i can tell you anything, and you can tell me anything, without fear of persecution. So i don't wna lose someone so important to me, thats why it's hellish in the sense whenever we fight, we just shake the love away and really just go at each other. (btw we just made up.)

oh the good thing bout us is we make up easily. (:

still, me going to NS will be a challenge for the both of us, take care of yourself, and wait for me. (:

time for photos.

HANS

the not so nice cakes

the lemon tart and strawberry pie which kicks ass! (:

they call this (the beautiful ending)

thats it.

a levels

2009-03-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

i know i'm screwed, but just don screw me too hard.
Friday the 6th 2009,
i want u to come fast, yet i don want u here.
oh well, hope all is well.
best of luck everybody.

random charity

2009-01-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

i donated money to the SPCA today. (:

无奈

2009-01-07T23:38:00.003+08:00

1962

(gunshots were heard)

he falls, lying on no man's land,
between the walls he built himself.
bleeding,
his friend succeeded, he failed. Screams of pain incessantly filled the afternoon sky,
his cries of help was echoed against
the murmurs of the crowd gathering on both sides,

he was trapped.

MURDERERS! MURDERERS!
goes the crowd, protesting against the guards.
yet, no one helped him,
there he was,
in no man's land, his life, leaking away in front of
the journalists, the soldiers, the people.

'DO NOTHING', the officers commanded,
what happened to the crusaders of truth,
have they been blinded by fear?

an hour's past,
he breathed his last,
and came the guards, to clean up the mess,
and years went,
and memorials were erected, to remind our
children, of the murderers who killed Peter,
and the accomplices who stood by and watch him
die.

RIP: Peter Fechter 14 January 1944 - 17 August 1962.

appreciation. (:

2008-12-29T01:31:00.006+08:00

a big thank you to all my friends who celebrated my bday for me and for the wellwishes, (i know it's abit late for expressing my gratitude, better late than never)

thanks vans, sk, bryan, keli for coming to the kbox session on the 18th and i really enjoyed the session with you all- the songs, esp the choco cake, thanks VANESSA! (the cake on the face was cool too) (: and a BIG thank you to sk and bryan for the tshirt and cd. really liked it alot. Really, thanks for taking time and the effort to come kbox. really ho gan dong!

a big thanks to the clique shasha, mengli, seokpeng, szeying, lengshan, stella, linda, bestia, weijian, yy, (hope i didn't miss anyone out) for celebrating the day, along with xmas with me and weijian. and for the presents- really 谢谢你们！

(Below is seokpeng's card and the polotee i got from clique)

and on the actual day itself, really thanks, my dear girl for making the day really wonderful and memorable, i know i am sincere when i say this, and you really made it complete. u know i wanted practical stuffs, and u went out of the way to get me them, along with the not practical ones. i will wear the shirt tmr to pub. (: and your countdowns, with the BIG BIG HEART. (: i will remember what you have done for me. (: and i hope i could make your bday swee swee too. im sure it can be done. I love you, thanks for everything you have done for me, sweetie.

the countdown heart paper (:

the card you made which compiled my friends' messages. (:

your personal card for me! ((((:

the inside of the card - : D

our 大头帖 (it is actually blocks of wood decorated on all dimemsions. )

premium

the front.

cube cube.

my practical stuff! (:

(oh theres another tshirt but i cant upload the pic donno why...) ):

anws thankyou baby for the presents and for spending the whole day with me, i'm really really happy to have you. (:

stupid idiot. (:

手中的风筝放太快回不来

2008-12-15T01:49:00.003+08:00

pretty bitch. (:

line taken from a chinese song, and it's the first time im quoting lyrics. worked till four pm before leaving with keli, smth happened but i think can be solved. and yeah all my bad. don wait till the kite let go too fast, then theres no way to get it back, so yeah.

anyway, met shikun today after dinner, and went to vivo -bused to- central -walked to- raffles place -walked to- marina square -bused to- outram area.

oh i wna kp,

a pork avoiding citizen very politely, while my friend was holding a cup full of hot chocolate and paying up at 7 11, knocked into him so politely and grunted ' top up cashcard! (x2) ' to the cashier. thats not it, after my friend gingerly went out of the store, and i was outside waiting, the guy knocked into him, I AM VERY SURE IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, and the HOT chocolate spilled over his hands and onto my sunburnt hands. KN*CC*. and he got so pissed he poured the whole cup away. well, society, has all kinds of scum, oh i mean people. then spent some time planning a holoclaust, (fuck the never again bullshit), okay im sounding like a Nazi, but i have nothing against semites, but yeah, maybe we can recondition some minorities. nvm. sorry if i sound like an extremist ( i still love racial harmony, one people one nation one Singapore!)

sorry, out of point. but yeah, watch idiocracy, this movie is funny, and it's true, people are getting stupider and stupider.

www.movie6.net
search idiocracy, or sth like that. (:

have fun watching, and peekchures!

just look at her. still pretty bitch.

Tribute to Premium

2008-12-11T23:35:00.005+08:00

This year, i have made friends with a cat, as seen above, whom i named it for myself, Premium, needless to say, it is a 'premium' cat compared to other strays in the area. and ive fed it and the other strays in the area occasionally, and over time, i've really grown to like premium. It is really cute as it gives u the face u see above when it wants food, but when it is full, it just walks away, yet it is really cute. (:

nowadays, when i pass by that route i try to find it but to no avail. initially i thought it is just not there, but everytime i walk past that area it is not there.

you don realise how important something/someone is to you till it's gone.

it's true, it made me realise the things i have lost and the things i have, and that they are not 'always gonna be there' for you. that's life.

Premium

keli wanted to take premium, thanks. (: at least i have an image of premium. so i wouldn't forget.

the food, meant for premium, not opened.

keli, losing something important to you feels terrible, it's like when it's usually there when u find it, you tend to neglect the importance it bears to you. i hope i wouldn't lose all that is important to me.

superwoman. (:

ps: anyone see premium, pls let me know. no reward, but lots of gratitude.

prom 2008

2008-12-05T03:59:00.002+08:00

decided to record down how i felt during my junior college prom on the internet. it was really fun, and full of nostalgia, although i could have been even happier winning the lucky draw or with keli's company, the prom was comparable to the previous one i attended. for a start, the food is good. NOT chinese dinner fare. maybe im just a poor bloke who appreciates the good stuff in life, but the food is good, esp the prawns! so fresh, and besides that, i feel that the messages from our teachers were really emotional, like, they make me feel unique as their student, and hopefully i wouldn't need to come back to impose myself upon them next year. oh the after prom activity was cool, although we should have gone to a pub, we went to buy drinks at 7-11, (really helpful) and sat down outside marina to drink, talk, and enjoy the company of friends.

time really passes so quickly, im losing my sense of self. esp now im just working, slacking, working slacking, it is so, rapid, i cant even stop and feel my peace and quiet already. i think i need some sleep.

(don say i nv feature u in my blog like a teenage girl)
thanks for all that you've given me, and i really enjoy dousing in your company. although i may dota > you, but thats only short run, long run, you > dota + other bullshit.

i hope and i know the diseconomies of scale will not set in. (: and i dota cos i don wan law of diminishing marginal returns to set in. :P

last words,

im not emo. im not jere-ahem..

2008-11-28T00:47:00.003+08:00

after seeing some people around me, heres a poem to sum up how a single dude feels.

Robert Graves

A Slice of Wedding Cake

Why have such scores of lovely, gifted girls
Married impossible men?
Simple self-sacrifice may be ruled out,
And missionary endeavour, nine times out of ten.

Repeat 'impossible men': not merely rustic,
Foul-tempered or depraved
(Dramatic foils chosen to show the world
How well women behave, and always have behaved).

Impossible men: idle, illiterate,
Self-pitying, dirty, sly,
For whose appearance even in City parks
Excuses must be made to casual passers-by.

Has God's supply of tolerable husbands
Fallen, in fact, so low?
Or do I always over-value woman
At the expense of man?
Do I?
It might be so.

post exam

2008-11-26T09:53:00.002+08:00

yes, a lvls has been over for only a short time now, 5 days, however it seems to me that it's been a long time since the exams, maybe it's cus i slacked off after the 13th, history, my second last paper. so yeah, anyway, im really hoping to get into NUS, NTU, SMU. don wna waste parents money, but the chances aren't that high, oh well, im not gna retake my alvls thats for sure.

post exam life is really, nothing much actually, initially i felt a sense of exhilaration, and had high expectations of the fun i will experience, but seems like the 'after a lvls i sure damn happy!' statement i made did not fulfill. but nonetheless it has been better than having to mugggggggg. so shian. now i can do whatever i want, with some limitations, but still, the freedom is there. oh,

work started yesterday, and will be working like a dog at takashimaya. but today im still going to the office to pack stuffs, work is fun, at least i get to move myself unlike the past few days when i just read manga, game, manga, game. not saying that manga isn't good, it is one way i want to spend my holidays, but im expected not to read too much manga, so i have to conform. anyway, i was reading ichigo 100%. it's really good, and the ending is very much the one i wanted. (:

i want to know myself.

selling Gucci bag!

2008-10-24T01:35:00.003+08:00

okay im broke nowadays so im selling my Gucci bag,

Gucci 146310 F4F5R 9791 LARGE COLLAPSIBLE CARRY-ON DUFFEL
http://www.buybagbag.com/gucci-146310-f4f5r-9791-large-collapsible-carryon-duffel-p-817.html
this is the link but u are not buying from the website but from me, hmm, so any interested buyers, please leave a tag, or get to me personally at scarlet_red_sky@hotmail.com. really hoping to sell this bag off. thanks.
price, $129.90. (can negotiate) (:

please leave a tag!

hey mr policeman.

2008-10-15T21:24:00.001+08:00

WOOO! i got my enlistment letter today and I AM GOING TO POLICE FOR NS! (: so happy! and those ppl who are going to police please let me know. (: can go tgt! hahahahah! so happy! (:

REMINDER

2008-10-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

almost a month to a lvls, and. OKAY, it's gonna sound weird but one of my motivations to mug through this period is from my buddy, Shikun. haha, actually it sounds gay but he told me during one study session few weeks back. he told me that he don mind joining SP orientation and welcoming me as a freshie. that thought sends shudders down my spine. if i don go SP, nvm still got guanwei at NYP, vanessa at RP, ziting at TP. imagine my feeling when i see these friends of mine waving their school flag at their orientation, and i am their, freshie. DAMN. MUG MUG MUG!

quick update

2008-09-22T18:45:00.002+08:00

a quick retrospection into the events that have occured before i return to my Mao Zedong. (international history)

many birthday celebrations, some of which i attended, some of which i missed (pity pity)

ECP with family was fun. although i had to leave early.

guess the next family affair is next sat, and time is ticking away. better not waste anymore time.

byebye.

thanks qixuan

2008-08-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

ripped from qixuan's blog. (:

reply to shasha's tag.

2008-08-24T13:49:00.002+08:00

Hello YUSHASHA! surprised to see your name here? anyways, about the 'hate myself' post that i wrote in the airport ya, i think i was emo and down that time and out of impulse i wrote that post, but now i think everything is alright so i don feel that same way anymore, yeah, and thanks for responding to my emo post, and u know the museum is fun, the first part only luh, cos it's divided into periods of SG's history, theres the Sang Ni La UTAMA period, then raffles, then Kuan Yew's period, the 3rd part is not very interesting, (smirks) oh it's cheap also, lesser than movie ticket! 5 dollars! anws, ya must go! (: anws,

to all: mug hard for exams! can one la!

late museum post.

2008-08-21T23:02:00.003+08:00

National Museum of Singapore is a kick-ass place manxzxz! and the company i went with kick-ass even more! (: it's an interesting place to go, $5 dollars per student, then you get to learn abt singapore's history from sang nila utama's time, till Lee Kuan Yew's time, it's really cool, theres this digital companion you get with you then ya, photos will give a better view of the place.

oh ya thats the company i went with, see the lights at the btm, it's the digital companion thingy, quite cool.

thats all for the museum post, next outing will be FLYER! (: cya!

oh and to vanessa and the fortnight clique, go out next friday luh! after prelims alr! can ask all to come, hahaha! (:

PLS BEAR WITH THE SKIN FOR A WHILE

2008-08-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

sorry, i let my cousin meddle with the skin and im a noob at these, so please bear with the irritating photos there, TSK SO PAISEH! yes credits to irene. =/

evina's blog personality test, thanks evina.

2008-08-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

new skin

2008-08-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

yes, the title says it, new skin, new beginnings, and yeah, comment on skin is welcomed. (:

love

2008-08-11T20:07:00.001+08:00

i feel extremely fulfilled today. and pip is happier now. ((:

family?

2008-08-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

i really feel connected at times of loneliness with the giants and figures in literature. oh anyways, this national day is gonna be a special one, guess why? because my paternal family has decided, (extended family) to hold a gathering at some aunt's house, which is good. although i feel excited thinking about it, but i know i shouldn't think this way, but im thinking to myself not to get my hopes too high. For i think some people wouldn't be there. for a start, my nuclear family has one member unwilling to go. like wtf? not mentioning any names here, but really, what happened to blood ties and kinship? oh, and i rmb at CNY, the last time we met, people were all so superficial. i yearn for an extended family. why? because it's 热闹. yeah, cant believe it huh, oh i sure hope to see my like this year then discovered and only God-sister. (: anticipated. (no she is only primary 6, im not a pedophile.) anyway,

i really think i should not carry on blindly but i cant help it. infatuated. FUCK.

(i think i really shouldn't end the post that way)

so more about my God-sister. I have like known her since she was young. yet, i didn't know she's my half sibling. then, being the ultimate asshole that i am, towards young kids, i bullied her, like to the extent that she didn't dare to come into the playroom to play, oh the playroom was my bedroom. okay not getting sick but yah, then i allowed all the other cousins to come in but not her, =x anws, i got abit like perplexed when i grew older 15-17, that why this cousin so scared of me. lols. then during this CNY i realised, she said i bullied her alot so she's damn afraid of me, but not now i guess, oh then my dad told me she's my godsibling, my ah ma arranged it, she says im the only child, wants to give me a sibling, well although i only see her once or at most twice a year, im so gonna spoil her, LOL! (be nice to her during the next gathering)

okay back to econs mugging.
(don disappoint me, family)

fuck

2008-08-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

fuck, i want to rest and study but i have to respond to my call to duty.

Friends > studies?

and i need to 'concentrate'? FUCK NO!

WHAT HAPPENED TO RELENTLESS FOCUS?

and youth relationships are starting to lose their sheen. everyone is getting a heartache because of it. and I, shall not, but am still affected by that fucking emotion. (im starting to talk like the girl on the bus.) LOL.

anyways, i set my sights on it, and im gonna get it.

bye to all.

unproductive

2008-08-06T21:42:00.002+08:00

okay shit everyone around me is afraid and fucking worried abt the a's and i am not, instead i am worrying about stuffs that i should not be even entertaining thoughts about. okay fuck it, im going to sleep and wake up early tmr to continue.

airport

2008-08-04T20:11:00.003+08:00

u know, recently i've been going to the airport and looking at those people leaving this piece of land for other lands have made me realise how big the world really is. and i really yearn to leave this land, on a trip to wherever my legs bring me. and my destination? quoth Stella, a place where i get accepted. There is this sense of injustice in me that makes me feel that i should have been born a better person, or at least bred a better one. Well, my mediocre countenance and altitude. Besides this, i feel very sore whenever people go woah look at that person, (and exclaims how apt that person is in some field of expertise) and i feel extremely inferior whenever that happens, for i am not bred/born with these skills or talents. yes, flying away will not solve my problems, it is human to judge and whenever there's humans, i will be compared with and judged. hence, i seek solace in my friends. those who i trust in and feel comfort with, yet, most if not all of them have talents and whenever im with them i just feel that i suck. okay (junkai is behaving like a gigantic pussy) and i have many things others might not get to enjoy, relatively good family, not so smart not so stupid intellect, and i guess thats all.

someday, i will find someone, who would accept me for the person that i am.

when will that day come, when i can find Biddy?

but for now i shall pin my hopes on Estella.

Why Pip (as in the Charles Dickens Pip) love Estella that much and is willing to be a gentleman to get her? Will someone answer my question?

just be yourself, Mr Beasley

2008-08-04T16:11:00.002+08:00

airport has become my studyland nowadays. and it's quite productive yet draining on the wallet. anyways, im so much better with my emotions. u know, Corrinne May is really my idol now, although someone close introed her to me in the past i didnt really listen to her songs, but now i realise she's some good shit. so yeah enjoy the playlist. (: back to work!

mend her heart.

2008-08-02T17:47:00.002+08:00

time: 17.45
date: 2/8/08
location: changi airport T-3 coffeebean
mood: depressed
post objective: comfort another's soul.

dear friend: events really happen one after another, life is so unpredictable, lives have been turned upside-down, inside-out. sometimes fate just love to make fun of us. nonetheless, i believe that we have to deal with what life throws at us with whatever resources we have. Yes, i know the feeling of not being able to change the way things are and just looking at your loved ones mourn. But, we still have to get on with life. i'm sorry to hear about it, even sorrier than the rejection and the sense of hopelessness i was dealt with minutes before i heard the news. the resources we have, hope, friendship, and faith, will lead us through, and if you or anyone u love need a helping hand, don hesitate to call on me, and i'll be here for you, anytime.

and i feel bad for being unable to help you, just as you feel for your friend. thank you for telling me what i want to know, your secrets.

junkai.
your ever concerned friend.

hi, bye

2008-07-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

i feel like Pip.

let me tell you why.

i think recently changes have again unsettled my life and im really not accustomed with this. and i met Estella the other day, on my way back home, she was with the company of Sarah Pocket and another whom i don't know. I was familiar with her, for when i was younger i always talked to her, until one day when she met Miss H, her heart became hard. I didn't really bother about Estella then and she met another guy, Drummle, fortunately i don know this Drummle in person but i know he is at where Magwitch was deported to, educating himself. And, poor Estella devoted her all, for she was arranged to marry Drummle, or she already did, but he had to leave her, all alone, unable to take anymore blows, she swore not to love nor let love again.

here i am, poor Pip, trying to resurrect her dead heart but to no avail. I feel that my heart is being wounded and cut in my process. i don't know how long can Pip last, but i hope Time will heal Estella and she and Pip could live happily ever after.

poor Biddy, but then again, She is NOT Biddy.

byebye. (this post should be understandable to Dickens's fans!)

emo

2008-07-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

i don know why but i have never felt this way before.

sheltered

2008-07-27T21:12:00.004+08:00

Corrinne May:
Shelter

What's wrong, whats getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll

Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend.

thanks alot for the song! people go listen to the song i put on my blog, it's very very beautiful.

and to her who is reading this, i'm sorry i cant be your shelter. It is tough, but i didn't want things to go this way.

and beppu-ed with close friend today, first time with her, so strange to her, so familiar to me. but no, no more heart breaks. I ain't gna do a Miss H.

i still feel that you are the right one for me, you who was there with me throughout.
beppu
lavander hawker centre
5 head market fish soup
mos burger
ben & jerry's
ghim moh chicken pie
there is still much more you and i haven tried.

you understand me most. but.

can we go sakura?

do u think i am fooling around or im crazy?

for just one last time.

went to church today and the message was, God take control of every moment of my life. so i guess i was walking like headless chicken ytd with my friend. yeah, anyways, thank You for being there for me, my everlasting pillar of support.

leaving someone out

2008-07-26T13:12:00.002+08:00

oh i realised i left someone out.

to patient, thanks for being such a good companion these days.

AND I MISSED PERFECT CUT FINAL EPISODE. ))))))))))))):

antagonist

2008-07-26T12:49:00.002+08:00

i suddenly realised that although we live in the same place called Earth, but we live in different worlds of our own. Fiction has always inspired people of all ages, races, religion and i have to say that i realised we all are protagonists in our own novels and antagonists in others. and now at this point of my life, many unexpected twists and turns have taken place. Anarchy amidst calm has manifested in my life, as well as some of my friends.

and to my dear old friend who might or might not be reading this, i hope you are well and please do cheer up although u might feel extremely upset changes have taken root due to external factors all around. please take care, let me know if u need any help, anything i can do, i'll try my best.

and to my sweet and good natured old friend who has been around me recently, thank you for being so comforting to me, and for all the concern that u have shown me, i knew missed opportunities have changed our lives. which explains what i am trying to do. Yet your good has caused me to lose myself that i have misplaced my beliefs and changed the way i think. Nonetheless thank you for being here.

AND THANKS ALOT TO SHASHA for the Kinder B. and LINDA for your concern.

and to another of my dear friend, who has made H1 chinese lessons in PAE super interesting for me, although im the only one from my PAE class who attends the lessons, if u see this, im sure u will, please let me know if u need anything, although i never heard of the afflicted heart was healed by filling the stomach, chocolates still make people happy. but if u need a listening ear, u know what to do. but i hope this day wont come, that i become your friend in need. and... (weekends ARE enjoyable!)

and to that special someone, , im sorry but i want to move on. i hope u can too. no matter what, i'll treasure all that u have given me. my neck is a living reminder of your existence. i miss you still.

looking on the brighter side, i should not emo anymore for if i were my father, i wouldn't want my son to be emo. for You i will cheer up!

so......

and WOOO, I'm going out with 2 girls and NUMBOY later. CYA! :D

and to myself, PLEASE TAKE CONTROL! (shit)

lack of determination

2008-07-24T21:04:00.005+08:00

okay im sorry people i succumbed to temptation and switched on the time consuming computer. i just feel that i need to update everyone about my recent ups, and downs. study stress is starting to get to me, i feel the urge to start to pick up my notes already. yes, i just finished one econs mock exam today and i feel that im gna fail if i were to take the a's now. and tmr theres a math mock exam. hopefully i'll scrape a pass, although my fundamentals are weak, but im hoping to get a S, at the very least. oh and im happy with my SEAsian history. but then need more practice.

enough about my school life, recently this show on channel u, 'Perfect Cut' i think it's really a good show, reflective of the values that this modern society lacks, and adopts. anws, it's ending in two days, and i feel anyone with a low self esteem should watch it. the song kicks ass too!

and, im a single and unhappy man now. commitment sounds like a big word. yes it is. well, if u aren't happy recently with the status quo which had remained for a long period of time, would u change it? i did it. and now i feel that i miss her
i was on the bus home today when i saw this couple, yes, jealousy? maybe not, but definitely, it triggered alot of thoughts and memories. the bus ride home was definitely cold. for me, but not for the couple.

thank you friend for saying goodbye to me on the bus. i really appreciated that wave.

im on talking terms with stella again. feels really great. have fun in genting stella! (:

i feel so empty.

although my days are packed full.
fri : maths test till 5pm
meet vanessa and sec sch gang for movie.

sat: studying with phyllis and her friend (:, and me and my handsome NUM friend. LOL

sun: church with weijian, wanping and God. yes, i hope this prodigal son of Yours will return to You for good.

thank you evina, keli, and qixuan for being there to listen.

lastly, i shouldn be online, as pointed out by cousin. so byebye!

focus

2008-07-20T22:15:00.002+08:00

FOUR DAY WEEK SYSTEM!

my dear friends and readers, please note that Lim Jun Kai will not be logging online to access the worldwideweb anymore on Mondays - Thursdays, please be a kind soul and kindly 'remind' him to log off the computer and get his ass to work. thanks so much. I love you and miss you, internet. ):

eulogy

2008-07-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

You once told me,
that we shall always be,
and nothing will stop us,
from dawn to dusk.

Then came the plague that stemmed from us,
that,
like the tower of Babel,
set us apart.

We had different goals, different
priorities, which caused our
love's demise.
the gap is widening, you and

Me. we have come, to a phase,
where speech has gone dumb.
where words have lost their definition,
like a Sun that's lost her heat.

This isn't a plea, just an eulogy, for this little link we shared,
this link, abused and hurt by friction, and
here it lies, in the little box, just like little plant we seeded,
a 13 pound box.

a pound for every month

.

cold war

2008-07-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

cold war, i hate it when u don bother, i don want to bother too. it's fine if we don contact each other. but u know i miss you. damn you for making me feel this way. loves.

HELL

2008-07-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

summary

2008-06-22T21:44:00.002+08:00

june holidays 2008

the heading says it, time now is 946pm, tmr will be the first day of school, and i feel like asking for more grace, not that i have not rested enough, but more of that i cant bear to leave this comfortable period i have been accustomed to now and hopefully this entry will help me to pack up all the emotions and inertia and i can prepare for my final exams. A levels. in a blink of an eye, it's already 22nd of June. seems like ytd that i ended my school term and told myself, 'junkai, u need to mug during june.' but turns out that ive not accomplished anything, and on top of that, im not mugging now but instead im blogging. but i feel this compelling need to get this steam off me if not i will feel very bogged down. first, lets start off with my China trip.

if anyone asked my how was China, i think my immediate response would be, it's dirty. yes it is not very clean but it has it's perks, like, the cheap stuff there, the macs cost like max S$5 there, and u get the whole meal la. and the bags, wallets, shoes, all are dirt cheap. but i had to contend with the locals there who are so close to us in those narrow shopping lanes, and like all humans do perspire, the smell is memorable. in addition i think that due to their easy accessibility to tobacco, the locals love to smoke everywhere, in hotel lobbies, shopping centres, toilets, streets, and it seems like a necessity there. i guess that is one of their escapes in life. however, the humanitarian side in me feels empathy and sympathy towards them. poverty is still an issue in China, the trip to China made me feel that i am really really lucky and blessed to be a Singaporean citizen, education, family, the advantageous climate here has made me into a more informed person than an average Chinese citizen. i must say that not all children in china gets a education, and they have let me see a different side other than those negative images that my previous posts have portrayed. they are made up of what we are too, but the difference between us and them is that some of them are poorer, and have to forgo the education which some of us take for granted of, and due to their poverty have to resort to many methods to ensure their own survival. like eating whatever they can lay their hands on, selling whatever they can, making whatever they think can sell, or begging, borrowing, and stealing. talking about begging, i must confess that i am really a spineless worm. I was at the China's streets and i saw this hunched back beggar lying on the floor asking for some money, i felt the prompting that i should give some of my money. i checked my wallet, there's only a $100 renmingbi note. = to SGD$20. i asked my cousin and my guide whether to give some spare money, the guide said, these beggars earn alot. and i was just dumbfounded. i didn't retaliate, maybe the subconscious me is thinking that it is a good excuse not to give. but now i think that it isn't. another incident, at the airport, i was greeted by beggars during my last day at Guangzhou, they asked for money, but someone around me rejected them and told us this, u give them some, they will ask for more. so now im thinking, issit that i can only give them some, and i cant afford to give them more? or is giving only limited to giving what u can spare, and not giving your all to help some more? but at that time i alr spent all my money, cant give any anyways. but i felt bad, really bad. so this trip to China has made me realise how lucky i am, and has increased my tolerance for the Chinese nationals in singapore, for it is who they are for behaving in how they behave. and i met this nice ice cream shop guy, he's a working teen, think older than me by 3 years? he asked me how i found china and was really friendly, another was this woman, my mother felt giddy and she let us sit down in her shop. good ppl are everywhere, but usually the bad get more of our attention.

next, homework, i didn't do any, hopefully i can finish them up someday, but i have never done holiday hw since sec 2, im really lazy.

i think this post is enough, photos up soon! and the end of the holidays marks the start of the mugging, 2 hours a day, hope i don have to retake a levels. (: thanks for reading. and really if u are a singaporean thinking of migrating to a better place, a corny phrase to share, 'there is no place like home.' (: bb!

MUG HARD

2008-06-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

indecision makes shitty days.

shit

2008-06-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

one day, i'll make nothing matter. shake off all the shackles that bound me to the world.

i guess that day will most probably be the day that i die. =/

rants

2008-05-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

again, China never fails to impress us with some of their population's personal qualities. correct la, with their huge population, they produce all kinds of ppl. Some of whom we see and interact with are, authentic China teachers, those coffee aunties, pei du mama, Chinese talents, scholars, but today im blogging about one kind of ppl they produce, CHEATS.

yes, greed is a sin which is inherent in us, cos im going to China this holiday, (no not to si chuan), ive heard many many stories about keeping your bag in front of you, pickpockets, cheats who offer to change your money. now, people of the people's republic of China, are actually 'Capitalizing' on the earthquake. 6 billion renmingbi donated, half are not available to the victims. COME ON! i mean, although i donated a mere 5 dollars to them, but it's not for those cheats who feed on the misery of the victims right? knn, these people really have no sense of shame. Money which is meant for victims, goes to people/organisations who 'in the name of charity' help the victims, who actually use the money for their gains. it's really disheartening.

not like thats the only thing u hear from the vast country, u hear news of animal abuse, like they cage bears up to get their body parts or sth, dogs are clubbed to death, then also their 'talents' who come to our country, to work and benefit our economy. how nice of them, but don they just cause problems wherever they go? (i know im being very emotional) we complain that they snatch our jobs, husbands, and even hawker centre/bus seats. fark, their country too small issit? no space for them must come squeeze with us. okay off topic.

i wonder, is that Sodom of the 21st century? i guess not. but their people just do anything for money eh? corruption, leading to inferior construction materials, leading to deaths to children at when earthquake strikes. INFERIOR. when will they become civilised? ain't the Chinese one of the oldest Civilisations around? how did it become like this? is it cos they cant take the effects of modernity and they just go berserk and earn money like that? hopefully someday, one day, people will change for the better.

kudos to the people working for the humanitarian works of CHINA AND MYANMAR!

w

2008-05-28T21:41:00.002+08:00

rmb the time when i just went to sec four and the start of the year, some major change happened to me and i just got paralysed, not out of my will but something like, as if i have been tied up by shackles and these shackles are cut. this feeling is very very terrible. just like those bears the CHina ppl lock up to retrieve their gall or sth. when these bears are liberated, they just move back and forth, back and forth, as if not knowing what to do. and nothing u can do will stop it from repeating this movement. living under such conditions for such prolonged periods have made the bears to have such tendencies, and i guess im like that bear right now, as when i was sec 4. fortunately, i was blessed with great friends like sk and ppl that pulled me up. and luckily that didn't affect my olvls. however, here i am, faced with another challenge, the A's! time really flies, but history repeats itself. although things appear to be resolved, things can never be the same anymore. and what i used to behave and think, are no longer how i can behave. sounds confusing. oh my, im really confounded by all that bullsh*t happening, and as usual, i wish for a time machine. just stop time and let me rest in the comfort of inertia.

old habits die hard.
but once u kick the habit,
it's hard to get addicted again, i hope.

HAPPY!

2008-05-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

we are back tgt. (:

stupid tag shit.

2008-05-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Rules of the Taggy Quiz :
A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ?
Weiting asked me that just now. I'm nt a very tolerant person, therefore, no chances.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be ?
refer to my previous post. tour the world.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like ?
im not a girl, anything my wife likes would do i guess. but, i think what happens after the wedding is more impt.

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you ?
nah, my paths are decided already.

#5. What's your ideal lover like ?
ive got her already.

#6. Which would you go for, someone you love or someone who loves you ?
someone i love, but loves me more than i love her.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love ?
im really impatient. not long. but it varies.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?
im attached again. so no funny ideas from me.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?
the short break.

#10. What do you want most in life ?
happiness

#11. Is being tagged fun ?
Yes, especially if candice tagged me.

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time ?
28 yrs old, probably marrying or married, maybe dead. u nv know.

#13. Are you someone who plans for rainy days ?
no, i take a day at a time.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
nice person. yeah. she'll most probably read this.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor ?
life isn't just being rich/poor, single/married. it varies.

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ?
the robot in 'Accuracy of Death'. ((((:

#17. What is your favorite song right now ?
虽然我愿意

#18. What kind of person do u think you are ?
Someone with a sucky attitude, but damn lucky for having lots great friends & family members:D Oh yeah, I can get really lame sometimes. (same as candice's answer)

#19. What do u think of death?
it happens to everyone.

#20. If there was something you could change about yourself, what would it be?
grow taller duh.

I was tagged by CANDICE CHIN SHAN XIA!
I'm tagging: WEIJIAN, IRENE, THERESA, ASHEE, WANQING, EVINA, SHASHA. 7's a lucky number. ((:

2008-05-25T22:08:00.001+08:00

candice said: there are still so many fishes in the ocean and maybe the fish you just ate has been in your stomach for too long and it's time to shit it out!

Love

2008-05-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

losing a loved one is hard to accept, to think of it, my grief is nothing compared to those ppl hit by the disaster. =/ when you were there, i didn't appreciate you. im sorry.

pls come back.

2008-05-25T18:59:00.003+08:00

as much as i want you back, i know it's hard cus you have already been numbed by all that ive done. i still wish for us to work this out, if u are willing to give me the chance. reading our diaries and thinking back on the memories really made me feel extremely happy but regretful, i want u back, but things are just not the way they were, if i cant right the wrongs, i guess, it's really time for it to end. love, i don know what is love. yet i know that i still have feelings for you. do you? if you do, then give us a chance, we will work things out to what they were again. rmb the chalet, our plans to have cats and dogs? spending your life with me seems so unreal, yet you spent nearly a year with me already. why not continue the journey with me, and i'll take you anywhere. i promise.

be careful ok?

2008-05-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

u never know who's viewing your blog. so we have to be extremely careful abt what we are blogging abt. because 'in a multi-cultural society like SINGAPORE, where any attempts to arouse racial discrimination is a huge criminal act, and as responsible citizens of Singapore, we have to be careful and not blog irresponsibly.

see, so dangerous, blogging and talking over the internet also must be careful. Don be surprised if you get arrested for blogging. but DON FRET! i teach u how to not break the law. ACCORDING TO THE Singapore Broadcasting Authority's Internet Code of Practice.

The Singapore Broadcasting Authority's Internet Code of Practice prohibits material, which is "objectionable on the grounds of public interest, public morality, public order, public security, national harmony, or is otherwise prohibited by applicable Singapore laws".

so, i tell you. the best way is, don blog.

what if my say the coffeeshop uncle don agree, what if my blog ppl see alr they feel insecure, cos i blog abt ghost before. how?

ohhh, in Singapore, no need for freedom of speech. u see the government is so nice, alr brought us from Brit colony to First world nation. not bad alr lah. They think we have little say in government, since we 'have pledged to 'build a democratic society' in our national pledge, they have initiated the speakers' corner, just for us! appreciate what they give us okay? although u must register with the police, the speeches are to be recorded by the government, and whatever is recorded is kept for 6 years just in case ppl review your speech already then they feel not happy or insecure then they can sue you. BUT, it's so nice alr, like a watershed in Singapore's democratic freedom okay?

so must listen to the government, because they are nice. (:

JIAYOU SINGAPORE GOVT! BUILD MORE IRs! BUILD MORE BIGBIGWHEELS! BRING THE WORLD CUP TO SINGAPORE ALSO! I LOVE SINGAPORE! im serious.

disclaimer: the above few paragraphs are actually for comic relief but i seriously think that we need more freedom of speech, exercised by self restraint rather than governmental limitations. besides, this shows that im not a politically apathetic teenager. and, i love Singapore! (:

stella's bday

2008-05-19T18:28:00.002+08:00

17.05.08 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STELLA!

MSG TO STELLA: STELLA! hope u had a damn happy bday and paiseh i'll get u the present at china, but anws just wait for it. but but hope u enjoyed the settlers and mongkok outing. I ENJOYED IT AS WELL! and we will go beppu ramen someday soon. i will make sure it happens. anws, yeah all the best and u know, being in the company of friends is a fortunate occurrence. and ALL THE BEST TO YOU FOR YOUR WHAT I LOST TRACK OF HOW OLD YOU ARE ALREADY! i think is 19. yah 19!

oh besides the bday celebration, we went for taking sides before that. was good. i liked the rjc's food. the cream puff was damn good. and they really shld organize more of such bullshit. but i must complain that i went to school at 600am and bloody hell, the time was changed to 645am. urgh. anws, we were nice to the rjc grp and yeah, had fun.

sorry to my friend we cant go gym as a result of the occurring events. ):

19th MAY 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHIHAN! ANOTHER OF MY GOOD FRIENDS! you were like my 15 years friend alr. so yah, I AM SO GLAD THAT I GOT TO KNOW U AGAIN in jjc, and really enjoyed all those trips to sch tgt even though it's a short time, not to mention the camps we hung ard tgt. THANK YOU ZHIHAN! for being such a power pack friend. so happybday to you! and have a happy 18th bday! ((:

and lastly, omg im so happy that there are like unknown readers who would read the material here. thanks! and keep the tags coming! ((:

oh btw, i have to say i am a really big fucker in the past. sorry abt the shit i gave everyone. FORGIVE BUT NOT ERASE THEM FROM MY PAST. PLEASE.

olympics

2008-04-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

(DISCLAIMER: HOPEFULLY I DON GET SUED FOR WRITING ABOUT THIS SENSITIVE ISSUE)

okay, as i first started to blog about this, i have several sources stating that The Olympics should be an apolitical event. but still, being the pro-freedom guy that i am, i believe in the self-determination of a nation and that u know, our eastern Big Brother will consider a separation with a differentiated small nation which doesn't acknowledge with them. Well, i also believe that the state sovereignty and the right to prevent separatist movements BUT, since Tibetans have a different identity from their counterparts, so maybe Big Brother will let them a go at independence. (((: (of course i have no say and China still has the final say)

SO!

as i was watching the news today, (the news was playing in the background), anws, theres this part abt the Olympics Torch Relay and ppl who are in favour of Tibet getting her independence and are trying to sabotage the Relay, and the news showed China Chinese ppl (i know this sounds stupid, but anws) saying that Olympics is a sporting event and political issues should not be raised through the Olympics. However, being the ancient Greek fan that i claim to be, I think that the Olympics was originated in ancient Greece where Greece wasn't united and the different states decided to come up with some Games in which athletes compete in and they represent their nations to like compete, thus, reducing the incidence of war, as these Games take the ppl's minds off wars and this is also an avenue to channel their aggression.
So, since the origins of the Olympics were to of a political one, so why the change to make it apolitical. im sorry i just wanted to blog and hopefully freedom of expression allows these and well, i know this prose is full of flaws but yup, comment please! thanks.

please let the world be a happier place!

it's hard, for it's hard not to make someone happy at the expense of someone else.

yup, we are all not very selfless. :D

random thoughts

2008-03-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

my friend told me today, live your life without regrets, then heres the big question, how to?

my mother told me, she has never seen me 'du shu' (read book) thru the night before.

i told my mother, i have lor, harry potter!

she said it's not studying, must study those that are taught in school.

now im thinking, do we live to study or am i merely studying to live.
it is true, if i don study, my future in singapore is gna be bleak. (im not gna say what your parents always tell you, or if u are a parent, u know the lecture abt how studying is good for your future.) but, my question is, how do u want to live your life? if i were to, be like my friend, live life without regrets, shouldn't i study hard now, and have a bright future, provided i get good grades ya? but, do i only live to live a good life? for eventually i'll die. what do i want out of a stable life, growing up to be a young adult, going to NS, university, career, retirement, death. which phase of my life am i working to? or is life about enjoying the process of death? im in doubt, for my religion would encourage me to live a different life, a life of spiritual development. yet that is not what i am going to live for. and with that in mind, i'll surely go to hell. so, from what i am now, till going to NS, university, career, retirement, death, there is another added phase of 'life', Heaven/Hell. but bearing that in mind, establishing a r/s with God is what is impt and why don we just die and go to Heaven/Hell.

IF LIVING IS ABOUT LIVING LIFE WITHOUT REGRETS, AND THAT WHAT U DID, U KNEW U DID YOUR BEST.

then why am i doing what i am doing now?

i have many dreams to achieve before my right to live gets confiscated.

i want to tour the world, see napoleon's statue, visit London bridge, see the Pyramids, scale the foot of the Alps, feed the wild animals in Africa, make friends with the China comrades, eat authentic sushi and udon.
i want to make friends and make my friends i have now happy, i want to go for coffee sessions with them, i want to try clubbing with my cousins, i want to go pubbing with my 'brothers'.
i want to make my parents happy and let them know that im not a bad son after all, i want to let them know that slogging hard to feed me is worth every damn penny.
i want to marry my loved, i want her to experience all these with me, and more. i want to make her happy, and let her not regret as well.
i want to go to Heaven, i want to know God, and be his forever.
then, after doing all these, i want to die.

then, living my life without regrets means dying with all your dreams accomplished, then why am i studying? shouldn't i be working parttime in France now? or perhaps in church? if God made all these wonderful things on Earth, shouldn't He let us enjoy them before he takes us away? if only, i could accomplish them, for if i do, im not gna regret my life. but sadly, im not dead yet, and theres so many chances for me to accomplish them, yet, God has given me the choice to choose, and i have to revise for econs now, as theres a test tmr, -.- what a letdown, and i feel much better. (: thanks for reading, i love the world.

giraffes are cute. (:

disable me!

2008-03-30T20:26:00.003+08:00

let me be blind so i can feel,
let me be deaf so i wont be distracted,
let me be mute so i wont hurt,
let me be dead so i wont judge.

random post

2008-03-26T22:14:00.003+08:00

im so bored now im gonna blog about all the random thoughts in my mind @ 26 MARCH 2008 1028pm Singapore time.

firstly, i would like to mention about myself being very entertained by some blogs which i came across online, which i think is damn funny, if u want the blog add, pls let me know, i'll share the joy. but it let me realise that God is fair. The blogger is wow, a model and if u read the posts, you will discover another depth in her. LOL. anyways, that set me thinking that God is fair, i mean, thank GOD FOR LETTING ME HAVE A FAIR STANDARD OF ENGLISH. yet, im short. Sad. but i have a comfortable family, and i have this very wonderful girlfriend, and my circle of friends. SEE, GOD IS FAIR.

but, some ppl are just RICH, GOODLOOKING, and SMART. like my cousin. but then, maybe she has her own difficulties? like, that time my other cousin was like saying, 'pretty, smart, rich, but short life' (touchwood) but really, surely there is something fair abt life man.

okay next, now huh, i have to comment that ppl usually have this courage boost online, like, it's easier for most to express their love and liking online, thru msn and stuff, and blogs are a way to vent frustration which bloggers normally don dare to voice out directly to the source of their annoyances. most who know me shld alr know what direction is this paragraph heading to. anws, i feel that some ppl online have the moral fibre to approach their friend's or a stranger's blog to post profanities or defamatory words to disrupt the blogger's life, so, yah, seriously, firstly, if there's sth u have against or comments u wish to let the blogger know, just put your msg across in a polite manner, or u can put the issue across with your stuff to back up your claim abt the blogger or anyone. (even the police wont go ard catching ppl without proof ya?) anws, yup, be nice and others will be nice upon u too. im sure, that would make the world a better place. (:

next, back to the first random thought, u know, come to think of it, life is like dota. like, we are all given attributes which contribute to our identity. differing factors like looks, brains, money, character, blah blah, if you were to have only two, what would they be?

looks will fade (despite botox and surgery)
money will be depleted
brains only get smarter (but what's the use if you are smart but u are unhappy?)
character (sadly, society nowadays often don regard character as the top priority.)

come on, post your comments! ((:
sorry for the random post. take care.

2008-03-25T20:17:00.023+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! as promised, im blogging abt the photos i took during my grandpa's bday celebration. ENJOY! anws, these photos are for my family. (: but if u like it then well, u are welcome to see these. (:

cousin Jenny

Cousin Joyce!

my mum!

see, the whole family is helping out the cooking

my biggest uncle's wife!

The preps in order

see the food, 8kg or pork, 5 kg of prawns!

this is just a portion of the food.

i think is 20 pieces of tofu

the curry chicken and all the food.

all the food!

really alot luh.

Jenny and Irene.

Da yi, grandpa, mama

jenny, irene.

irene's such a camwhore.

look at jenny.

look at her again.

see, camwhore. -.-

the next generation of the family. (:

oh i made that lil boy cry. i seriously did.

irene will surely ask me to delete this pic

randomly taking pictures. i was really bored then

oh the mother is comforting the lil crying kid

irene's side view. HAHA

everyone loves a crying child

the elusive photographer and his cousin.

candid shot

so pretty

camwhoreing...

i just love candid shots!

SEE MY COUSIN! next few shots will be some feature shots of my cousin!

u see, we were like taking photos ard, that explains how bored we are.

again.

and again, John!

we all love our lil cousins.

daddy

cousin joyce

so cute cousin!

now we are sick of photos, but it's the birthday song time! (:

oh, i forgot to mention it's another cousin's bday celebration too, so theres two cakes!

oh it's the crying boy's cake.

and my grandpa's cake

my grandpa!

john and his dad

again it's the elusive photographers.

and again.

my dad.

grandma

forgot to feature, the guy in white polo tee at the right is cousin lianquan! (:

the two cakes in action

see, the two photographers in action.

shot from the top!

everyone's revved up for the song!

again from the top!

and again.

jackson uncle!

preparing for the cake

the preparations in process.

my mother acting cute.

see!

irene and me

okay shakey hands.

family shot!

and the power of timer!

now i wanted to take it again but mistake, now everyone 'WOOI!' me.

again family shot!

at kbox!

that's all that i have today. take care! (:

MESSAGE

2008-03-16T00:01:00.004+08:00

to my love.

after this march holidays, would be a busy period for us, at least for me. i know we will have very little time we can spend together but i really treasured all the times we spent together this holiday and all the time since we've met. let's work hard and like do really well, then maybe your mama will you know, permit our r/s. (: hopefully, i will get into police after Alvls. then no need to go tekong. -.- okay, jiayou! ((:

from, junkai.

RULE NUMBER ONE

2008-03-09T22:41:00.002+08:00

on saturday, i went to watch rule number one with my friend, it was some last min thing which was initiated like this

me: hey, how did u do for your a lvl chinese?

friend: i get a pass i happy alr, got a D! you?

me: i got a B, but im disappointed, cos hor, i expected higher. =/

friend: haiya, nvm la, (yadda yadda)

me: sian, btw u have any plans today? sian la, rotting at home. ):

friend: ya lor me too, im damn bored, what a way to start the holidays.

me: how about we go out? at least better than rotting.

friend: go where, marina, (and starts to list many places)

me: go marina, can go IT fair too.

friend: kk cya later

oh i was late as always and we decided to watch a movie, and we settled on rule number one, she didnt want horror films and i thought it wont be that scary and i decided to lie lie abit, i said : aiya, is policeman show, don worry, only abit scary.

apparantly she didn't know what show it was about and just went ahead with me to watch. haha. in the cinema, woah, i think she didn watch 3/4 of the show, cos after the show, i asked her abt some parts, she said she was covering her eyes, LOL. anws, that show was the nicest horror movie i watched in a cinema, and i even wrote a movie review on yahoo. but i copied it here too:

RULE NUMBER ONE

What I loved most: The effects and the plot.

What I really hated: How the ghost possess humans by the human touch.

The film is definitely worth the dollar, shocking visuals (throughout the film), explicit images (look at Fiona's ghastly scene), though the acting is not as good, pity Fiona couldn't use her own voice and needs dubbing. Storyline is nice as it has most of the loose ends tied up though there are some parts of the story that are not corresponding to the storyline, like how the ghost managed to possess the girl who drowned yet the movie was filled with cliffhangers, and it makes one want to watch it on, even though the effects are rather stunning. Compared to Kelvin Tong's previous horror production, The maid, it is a stark improvement in terms of the predictability of the plot, the suspense it captures and the storyline is great! Note: When watching the movie, try to keep your eyes and ears open, or else some might find the movie lousy as it is scenes flow quickly and needs constant attention. oh and, give it a rest at how ghosts possess humans, vampires and werewolves can bite and infect humans, why can't ghosts do the same, it's fiction. so give it a rest. Based on the criterion of impact, the visuals and audio effects, complement the overall plot of the movie and draws your attention, so it can be for sure that one wouldn't fall asleep during the show. Enjoy. (ps: try to pay close attention to the ending part of the movie.)

this show is a must watch, go go everyone who is 16 and above go watch it! ((:

ALCOHOL POSIONING

2008-02-24T21:06:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY 23 feb

this is gna be a quick short post. i tell you ar, don ever drink vodka pop if u don have clean glasses, coasters and just use the right equipment for pop. man, on sat, sk, terrance, bryan, benjamin, and me, were supposed to do some swimming after my tuition, then hor, woah, they tua me say go eat bak kut teh, then in the end they finish eating and left to cut bryan's hair without me. knn, then without eating dinner, we had to go to sk and terrance's hse to change, original original plan was, suntanning + swimming with sk, then change plan, say go out chill, then change plan stay at terrance's house to drink. wth, yeah, we used newspapers as the base for popping the vodka, then mixed vodka with coke initially, then the coasters were those dusty types, -.- then nv clean, i was dumb enough to try the first pop. and now i have alcohol poisoning =/ sian la, then whenever i think of those alcohol we popped, i'd feel like vomiting and woah,

on sunday, supposed to go out with og mates, then alot cannot make it, so i cancelled it, sorry guys + im so not feeling well, so yeah, slept like from 4/5 of the day la. anws, thanks for all the concern from monster, and friends! hopefully i get well soon. =/

YOUTH OLYMPIC GAMES

2008-02-21T23:06:00.002+08:00

okay, was dismissed today at 1pm for lunch before going to The Padang, and i think i was like not used to cheering alr and was like dehydrated after 3hours of cheering and wayang-ing. Knew some new friends today, and yeah, CONGRATS TO SINGAPORE TO WINNING THE BID, (at least we didn't waste the money spent on those facilities) oh, i must comment that those organisers of the YOG countdown event were a little rude and realistic, like after we were done with the cheering of the crowd, (after we are of no use to them) they gave us like no space to 'breathe' la. i mean, after we have cheered and danced and wayang-ed. of course we would be tired and thirsty. so some of us sat down along the passageway inside the Parliament House and u know this event organiser was like so rude, he shouted at us with an irritated tone when we were only taking a rest from all the hustle and were thirsty and hungry and tired. Then he blamed us for like endangering the safety of the people inside the building, yeah, give us some space please, after all, i guess the organisers demanded a favour from us and ought to be a lil grateful. =/ oh and some ppl were sitting by the roadside (the road was closed) and these organisers again told us off and said don sit there, they could have adopted a kinder tone, but i guess they were tired too, (we are of course all humans, youths command the equal respect an adult should have too) anyways, all that aside, i must highlight that when one is feeling dehydrated, he/she would adopt a rather annoyed tone and would do things lethargically and yes, today i was like doing a 'silent' dance cos i really felt giddy, then this person who was apparantly very high and asked me why i am not shouting nor getting high, (apparantly i lost control) so i shouted loudly at her, sorry for my loss of composure but ppl shld be more sensitive towards others moods. thats it.

OG14 and the OGLS OF OG14! to those who can and want to come, we will be watching a movie at vivo on sunday, 1pm. we meet at harbourfront station. (:

CHINESE NEW YEAR PERIOD!!!! :DD

2008-02-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE CELEBRATIONS!

CLASS OF 07A01, HALF ONLY.

LINDA, WANQING! (they were standing on the flag stand cos they cant see the performance.)

LENGSHAN, STELLA, LINDA, WANQING

VICTORIA, VELVET, NADYA, JUNE

YU SHENG

WEBSTER AND MR HENDRI!

SHASHA, SAINIRAN, STELLA

OG14!!! :D

NADIAH, ME

LITTLE MONSTER, ME

HER AGAIN

JEREMY WITH HIS ROCKER POSE, ME

ROCKER POSE!

SHEENA, HAZLIN, ME

LENGSHAN GROPING JEREMY's BOOB

CHERI, ME

ABIGAIL, ME, CEQING!

one more shot cos the previous one was badly taken. /=

xiaowei. (:

lengshan and her 'so called' gossip club

stella is damn photogenic. (:

my anjing's friend, also my friend.

dick-son

xinli (:

huiwen! she said she was shy.

MY ANJING!

AGAIN. =/

:DDDD

UP NEXT, SOLO SHOTS!

STELLA

lengshan

shasha

LINDA

lengshan's wtf u want face.

same face, with gestures.

oh, 2bucks to anyone who guesses what this is. (:

seokpeng

stella (:

mengli

MY FAVOURITE PART OF THE WHOLE THING, WANQING GOT RAPED. (:

unglam shots. (:

i like this shot alot.

her nose needs a lil cleaning

seokpeng

J1 leaders. :D

anjing again.

i shall end off with, the two wtf faces.

HAPPY CNY, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! (:

OVERVIEW

2008-01-27T01:54:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY 22th JAN 2008
REVELATIONS DRY RUN

this week has really been one hell of a week. so many things to do, so little time. but it's good that we managed to u know, get over it. (: tuesday morning, had to go early to school for DRAMAFEST advertisement, ran to parade square, and was really like sweaty all over. then i realised that after school i have this dry run which i totally forgot abt, and i also forgot to bring the JJ leaders tee. ): then in the end i still went for that dry run, then had to chiong to do the og gifts after the dryrun which was like 7pm + alr. so we did them, and initially LS and i had to go to town to get friendship bands for our campers, but dewi said she could and i have my history assignment undone. and the deadline is at 9pm. i went home with arex and zhihan. then found out that my work has been done alr. so yah, went to write letters till late. and off to the next day.
WEDNESDAY 23th JAN 2008 REVELATIONS, DRAMAFEST FULL DRESS REHEARSAL!

this was such an emotional day, we were dismissed at 12noon to have our lunch and prepare for the dramafest rehearsal which starts at 1245pm, the rehearsal did not start till 3+ that is when we ogls came back from revelations. we were kindly released by Mr Shankar, who allowed us to go do the walk in and blow up the candles which signifies our end of our 'career' as an ogl. I really felt affected by the atmosphere and with the stress that pulled me apart, (dramafest & OG14), at the end of our revelations, i ended up crying, with wanqing and lengshan, that was the first time seeing her break down, the fact that we couldnt get to see our campers and join them during revelations really made me think that i disappointed my campers, (im sorry og14) and i had to go back to the rehearsals at lt5.

we had a rather crappy rehearsal, (i forgot all my lines) but we managed to pull through, and ard 6+ we were dismissed and very nicely our campers waited for us after their spring cleaning at the library, or rather outside the library. then i think we all went to kfc at JE to have our dinner, but some of them had to leave early, so sadly we cant eat tgt. ): but it was still enjoyable, and that was my last dinner i had with my campers as a whole.

how i wished that i could still be a J1, seriously, that's the sad part abt life, good things pass quickly, and i have to brace myself for the Alvls this october. And in retrospect, i sort of miss my good o days when i was a j1, og3 and everyone, even though many events had happened which changed our relationship, thinking in retrospect, i had my fair share of fun. AND AGAIN, i need to mention some names who had affected my decision to stay in JJ last year, (names in no form of priority) BERNARD, FREDDY, AMANDA, FAZ, WANQING, THERESA, SHASHA, HANQI, HANZHONG, LINDA, SIEWPING, VICTORIA, MISS KIM and of course the leader program which enticed me to stay in jj. and im glad that i stayed! (digressing)

back on track, i still had a hell of a time with my campers, and now though they have already made their choices, ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS! ((: please please lets gather one last time as a full og and go out and chill ya? i really really miss the camp days. =/ though we don't know each other yet, but the stuff we did tgt were still great. MISS YOU GUYS!

24th JAN 2008 DRAMAFEST/OLVLS RESULTS POSTING DAY!

THANKS FOR THE FLOWERS! THERESA! :DD

this is the day that we reap the fruits of labour, OUR DRAMAFEST PERFORMANCE! and also the day our dear campers reap their fruits of labour, their results are out! i was pretty worried for their results, like at 2pm, we (me and wanqing) got like v excited, and yah, you ppl did rather well! (: very happy for ppl like turtle, (she thought she would get 20+) she got so 13. i think, and to wanting(14), jeremy, abigail, and yeah, you all did well! (: then comes the performance, was rly excited and all, put on makeup, then went up during our turn, i realised i didn forget any lines, (so proud of myself) and yeah, the results: best actor, ABBIE, actress, QIXUAN! XDXDXD and best play, (drumroll...) 07A01!!! which is my class! HAHAHHA! i went mad and i hugged weijian until we both fell to the ground. LOL. after that was the refreshments, we took photos and thanks to all who came to support! (: sorry wanting, turtle, jeremy, we psed you intially. at first me and ls were supposed to celebrate with the class, then we decided that the class was abit indecisive and we decided that wanting needed us more so we came to jp to find them, turtle left for her friend* and left me jeremy ls and monster. ate dinner, then we talked abit then homesweethome! (: IM PROUD OF YOU OG14!

25th JANUARY 2008 FRIDAY MASS PON!

yeah, from the title, can tell that many ppl skipped sch today, and mr shankar bought us pizzas as our rewards for doing the dramafest. (: thanks MRSHANKAR! anws, the significant thing that happened today is wanting's fall. ): she fell down while doing games trial. i was there coincidentally, and yeah, she sprained her ankle and knocked her head. after awhile she was transported to the General office and yeah, i went to keep her company with turtle, winifred, rongguo and one more donno who. yah, her mum came and brought her back, then went home alone.

26th JANUARY 2008 SATURDAY
VISIT TO MONSTER'S

met up with shikun in the afternoon, then bought hotdog bun and slacked abit before going to meet the rest (lengshan, turtle, jeremy, patrick). we were supposed to meet at 530pm ,but i was delayed and as a result i was slightly late. (: well, traffic. (shakeshead) then we went to monster's, she was still limping, and her mother ordered pizzas for us, HAHAHA! and after eating, we chilled for awhile, and left. (yeah, hope wanting is reading this, you are really strong girl! im really proud of you! xD)

27th JANUARY 2008
SLACK AT HOME

28 JANUARY 2008
OUTING WITH SHIKUN AND CHOONSIONG FOR CNY CLOTHES!

skip the school part, cos nothing interesting happened, and yeah,dismissed at 3pm, went home to change. and met Shikun and Choonsiong at vivo, cs is working at gap, and ya, waited till he got released, and we went to eat at the nearby hawker, the thai muslim stall not nice, but ohwell, then went to fareast, shop shop talktalk, kun spent 130+ cs spent 140+ and i spent 39 on a pair of white berms! (: sian school tmr. ):

29th JANUARY 2008 to 1st FEBRUARY 2008,
NOTHING MUCH HAPPENED.

2nd FEBRUARY 2008
DAD's BIRTHDAY LUNCH + SHOPPING FOR FRUITS WITH WANQING

woke up today at ard 10, then bathed and weiting came. wore clothes, and prepared to leave for marina. dad came, fetched us to marina, and the food was, erm, not v nice actually, but i got stuffed with the food. ): and got really full, then we went to walk walk since we had some time, weiting and i went to topshop, saw this wallet which looked nice. and i merely commented on it, and then i went to the toilet, come back, we left for the mrt, then at the mrt, weiting gave me the wallet! OMG, thank you dear! ((: then reached bukit batok, met wanqing at escalator near shop and save. and we decided to go look for recipe books, sourced the library, and popular, then decided to just make salad. -.- went to supermarket to buy fruits and stuff, then waited for her dad to come, then i went home. used comp till now, and talked to eduard, evina, wanqing on msn, and yeah, wasted enough time, time to do work.

bye.

Things change. And friends leave. And life doesnt stop for anybody.
thanks lengshan, my friend but not friend friend. (:
(SHE STILL HATES ME)

photos again.

2008-01-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

OG14! AFT DRAMAFEST! :DDDD

me, jocelyn, yanbing and huiwen (:

menghan, and the same grp. (((:

random shots

the group!

the twins, valerie and yueyin.

og14! sadly it isn complete.

another random shot

menghan and hazlin

look at jeremy's coughing pose and diona's standard pose.

random again. at JE, after DRAMAFEST!

look at xiaowei's pose.

yes, menghan, we ate at KFC.

random.

SATURDAY, JAN 26 2008
VISIT TO LIL MONSTER'S!

an overview.

jeremy was trying to tickle patrick and patrick is irritating jeremy's balls.

turtle on the comp.

she asked me to delete this but i didn't

monsters on the piano.

see them in action. (:

2008-01-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

OG14!~

sorry for blurred shots

look at jeremy

again v blur. but we saw some RVians on our way to sentosa

kind singaporeans donating money to an unknown cause.

i didn't donate. ):

another kind soul

Nadiah always smiles at the camera. ((:

last photo of harbourfront's underpass to vivo.

sentosa beach station

turtle's pose is funny (no turtle, im not deleting it)

again, Nadiah smiles at the camera. ((:

alvin looks engrossed, jinghui looks stupid, diona looks cool, and yihui's just smiling retardedly.

somehow i see this scene repeating many times in my interaction with them.

en route to siloso beach!

somehow the cloud looks fake

look at them! jeremy looks excited.

look at abigail and sheryl

most girls are wearing fbt, maybe it's comfortable. (quoted from wanting:'i like it when my fbt's wet)

thanks for smiling at the cam nadiah!

im blocking everyone! (last pic @ vivo, before going off to downtown east chalet)

lengshan and her lil monster. D:

jinghui & Abigail

jeremy's back view, wanting and sheryl

no theres nth wrong with my camera, she just loves to bounce.

see what i mean?

apologies

2008-01-14T21:00:00.001+08:00

im sorry for the previous post, where i mistook someone for someone else, and i posted his/her photos on it. i apologise for the misunderstanding caused and i really am sorry about it. ): please please forgive me k? thankyouthankyou!

og14 outing + xiaowei

2008-01-13T15:04:00.000+08:00

it's xiaowei's birthday ytd and also the leaders thingy at suntec. so we decided to hold our og outing to like celebrate her bday, and i'll let the pictures do the talking. (:

grp photo! (:

xiaowei after we showed her her bday muffin + two bottles of booze + bday bear. crying, cos shes too touched! x)

the truth or dare session @ esplanade

see lengshan sharing the drink with gerald

the way home with lengshan, jeremy, wanting, dewi, and jinghui

theywe's solo shot

little monster's shot

lengshan's

jeremy's solo. he's so tired.

turtle's soloshot and her clone

finally my solo, (:

grp photos!

more grp photos!

some random shot.

feature shots of lengshan and her little monster! D:

more shots!

lengshan, theywe, and wanting.

super closeup of turtle

escalator shot. (:

lengshan jeremy and dewi.

little monster! arrrh!

and i shall end off with turtle! (:

photos up

2008-01-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

since some people are requesting for the photos to be put up, here they are! anws, the camp has been a tiring yet rewarding one, made manymany new friends, and had loads of fun with the campers. (: anyways, thanks so much to the many many people who made this camp possible. you see, the decorations are not made by houseelfs or they don magically appear in school when we want them to, they are made by our councilors, so hardworking right, next, to the ogls who are so high and who made the mood and raised the spirit of the camp. (: you people rock. next to the teachers who made the camp possible, as in, you tchers did some planning and stuff ya? so thank you! and last but not least, a big thank you to all our beloved campers, for it was you who made the camp enjoyable for everyone. (: and a special thankyou to the ogls in my og, xiaowei, menghan, dewi, and last but not least, lengshan! next, to our og14 campers, you ppl rock. (: and thank you jaime, who came to help though you weren't from jjc. (: alright, thats all, i shall blog another day. rock on ppl!

2008-01-08T20:25:00.001+08:00

ROOF CLEANING SESSION (DAY3)
nice job guys! for cleaning the roof. (:

og lunch

chaletchalet

2007-12-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

3rd Dec 2007-5th Dec 2007
Class Chalet @ Aranda Country Crub (PasirRisDowntownEast)

HEY EVERYONE! i have not like blogged for so many years and i'm finally back at blogger! alright, recently, ive been working and like my first break in many days. and yes, it's the class chalet!

DAY 1!
Met up with weixiang at tanjong pagar mrt, then like we were late alr. and at pasirris, only hanqi, hanzhong, lengshan, wanqing, me weixiang was there. that's like alot of ppl. they had lunch there and went to ntuc and arcade before going to the chalet.
3pm: CHECKIN! collected the keys and the bbq food, we went to the chalet and like tried to play the wii weixiang brought, but SADLY the tv set there doesn have the dnno what channel. then we resorted to playing mahjong and cards. omg, i learnt how to play there. ((: then went out for dinner, and then it was the night cycling time! we rented the bikes and taught weixiang and the twins to ride. the original plan was to go from pasirris to ecp via the park connectors in tampines, bedok. but but but, when we reached kembangan, we didn't want to travel further and so we turned back from kembangan and back to the chalet. with our buttocks hurt and legs all numb and sore. but it was really worth it. Sadly, i was not allowed to take photos due to some fear of the supernatural. =/ but all in all the bicycle trip was rewarding, to me at least. then we went back to the chalet, bathed and played some card games; daidee, and bob with connie, weixiang, lengshan and im sorry i forgot who else was awake, oh ya, sarah, alex. and im sorry to the twins and those who slept during the first night that we made alot of noise, so sorry. but it was really fun.

DAY 2
the next morning, i slept for like one hour and then we went to eat bk brkfast, we dabaoed, and then we were supposed to go escape but like was too late, then we went back to the chalet to mahjong, then when more ppl came stella and i was like left gamelesss, and we started to play this stupid game, (we started guessing names of flowers, plants and random stuff) then we had nth to do, but to go start the fire, weijian was the firestarter of the day and thanks to weijian we had fire. Weijian the Prometheus. (: then after bbq we bought vodka and weijian started emoing, because of some remark he heard, spotted by alex. in the end he got himself drunk, i guess i got abit drunk too, but im still like sober. then there was one part when wj kicked stella in the face and (he's drunk) then he held stella's face in his hands like so sweetly. omg i spotted it and told everyone to let them have the room. then we sorta locked them inside, and yeah, scandal. xD anws, we didn sleep.

DAY 3
next morning was knockout for me. i went back earlier, (sorry guys) and weiting came to keep me company! so nice of her, and thats the end of the 3days 2 nights!

photo dumping!

2007-09-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

check out these pictures! xD
sainiran and rama!

the twins! x)

shit

2007-09-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

yet another bus related post. today, 29th sept 2007, an annoying incident took place today. urgh. firstly, i believe many people have seen many 'call for sex', 'call for gay sex' numbers on the bus services on singapore. who wants to board a bus and see your number there. at least, you get to liquid it off or sth like that. but, what if one day, some stranger smses you and you know, tries to talk to you. you surely will get so so pissed and frightened. yes? because, you dont know which bus is it. thats what happened to one of my peers around me. urgh. such horrible behavior. anws, i believe that what goes around, comes around. these ppl will get their just desserts. pls, if you are a also someone who's going ard doing sth like this, don do it, you dont know what harm it does to ppl. but i think, you wont do such stuff if you have the intelligence to read a blog. xD thank you for hearing my lamentations. i hate such brainless/inconsiderate/ thoughtless ppl. don be one. thank you for spending your time. (:

cockroaches

2007-09-01T14:03:00.000+08:00

look! cockroaches on the bus! ytd when i was travelling from tiong to bukit merah, at ard 9pm, i took this bus, and i was stunned to see one cockroach crawling past me, so i moved further from that nest, then this auntie next to me, she thought i saw sth wrong, hahaha! then i told her it's cockroaches. but the main point is, NEVER lean on the bus window anymore! lol, u'll nvr know what might be crawling into your body and hair. =/ urgh.

weiting's birthday

2007-09-01T03:04:00.000+08:00

(it's a shallow post, just describing the events that happened, so that i wont forget it.)

it's her birthday on 31st august and i spent the day with her. =D she came to my house late in the morning and we busied ourselves in the room opening the presents and trying on the presents. then after some time, i went to bathe and then it's her turn, then while shes bathing, i went to prepare the cake and i lied to her that i substituted the cake with a mooncake which i could tell disappointed her. then she went to the room to change, when i immediately went to swap the mooncakes with the real cakes i got for her. then i asked her to the living room, and upon seeing the cakes. she really lighted up and got rly happy. then i sang the bday song for her, and we sat down to enjoy the cake, mango delight and chocolate indulgence from secret recipe. then we went to the room to pack up and then set off for ramen lunch at tiong. then we quarrelled. =( over some not so smart guy who smsed her, anws, it was a misunderstanding which lasted an hour, and we had a cold war during lunch, things started to warm up only after we finished eating and i started to nosebleed. lol, then we went off to the toilet to wash up and then we sorta made up with each other. then we went to vivo to walk walk. and she bought a belt which was not bad, and the price is reasonable. then walked and walked, and had icecream at Häagen-Dazs, and after that we saw this guy fren of hers and then said hi and then left for the roof top, then saw my sec sch friend, lidya i think. then yeah went to walk again, i really really felt so low whenever i shop with her, cos she could easily get those stuff she wants by just asking from her relatives, and i know i cant get it for her, and i rly feel bad. and so i need to work in the holidays! oh ya, then we went back. i thought the class dinner was still on and so i called weijian to ask, then he said i can join them, so i went to JE with her, and left her at popular as her mother is fetching her. then after tat i chionged to JEC, as my classmates are at the kbox there. to my pleasant surprise, my classmates were still there after an hour. unfortunately i lost patience and went home. on my way home, i called candice and we agreed to meet for dinner and went to macs and had a nice chat. then we went home and chatted with michelle, shes not so innocent! haha. anws, i gtg, tired. nights blogger. =D

the interaction with this uncle.

2007-09-01T03:01:00.000+08:00

okay, i am inspired by one of my friend's blog entry on aunties and i decided to talk about this random uncle who said approached me and zhihan when we were on our way home on the bus 98. it was after vball training, and we were on our way to the mrt station, and on the bus, theres this uncle who suddenly turned around and asked us to check whether the building which the bus just passed is lakeshore. then we answered him and i dno how and why, the convo drifted off and he said that many singaporeans of 'my generation' are not being very productive in the innovation and enterprise sector in singapore and then he said that unlike the countries in our region, we have very little people who have made great contributions to society.

He said that most people who have made innovations and those great achievements are ppl from malaysia, like the one who invented the newater concept, Olivia Lum (Chinese: 林爱莲; Pinyin: Lín Àilián), born in Kampar, Perak, Malaysia, is the Group CEO & President and founder of the Hyflux Group. She also heads the Research and Development function. (cited from wikipedia) well, nationality might be a factor in her successes but one must agree that she studied in singapore at the age of 16, at tiong bahru secondary school and then in Hwa Chong JC, and then in NUS, and graduated with an Honours degree in Science from NUS. However, this shows that Olivia Lum couldn't have done what she has done today if not for her chance to be educated in Singapore. however, it is undeniable that Olivia Lum might have the edge, because of her conditions she lived in previously, as she is said to have supported herself by giving tuition and paddling wares. However, it is undisputed that she couldn't have succeeded if she did not have the chance to receive the education she had in Singapore. besides, i think he is being too subjective, because the people who he sees, are not the representatives of my 'generation' they are the products of the education system of singapore in the 80s - 90s. so, this shows that our products of education are actually productive in flourishing in the innovation sector. zhihan also argued that Sim Wong Hoo, who was born in Singapore and had worked his way up to become a successful businessman and the youngest billionaire in Singapore at the age of 45. But the uncle just dismissed him and said, 'how many Mr Sim will there be?' well, i believe it's one of the banes of singapore's education system, that emphasizes too much on examination grades and the Sciences. yet, it is flawed as there is no statistics to show that our education system does not create many brilliant businessmen and technopreneurs. so, this man started saying about how our language and communication skills suck, compared to our neighbours.

He said, students from other countries are more proficient in their languages, and he cited Malaysia, and said that many Malaysians can speak good Chinese. well, i haven't interacted much with Malaysians, so i cant comment on that, then he challenged us and asked us how to say quality in Chinese. i thought for a while and i said 品质, then he had nothing to say. but he went on to say that this 'we' youths should learn to say it right, no matter if it's chinese or english. and not mix them up. well, thats the problem with bilingualism, u substitute some words u dont know how to express with the alternate language. and he says that it creates this concept of Singlish in us, which some of us are proud of. I am certainly guilty of speaking the 'so-called' Singlish, but it is a natural phenomena which i believe other countries have. But he said again that well, Malaysians can speak good Chinese. I cant refuse this theory, but he backs it up with the fact that Malaysia has Chinese medium schools, and hahaha, immediately, me and zhihan said that Singapore doesn't have Chinese medium schools because of the Communist threat, and i said it was because of the 共产主义者, then he seemed amazed. and he asked me whether i am local. which i said i was. and he just nodded his head in agreement.

then he said that actually, singaporean students are overcomforted. i agreed with him, and zhihan said that we have progressed so fast in 40 yrs we have leapfrogged from 3rd world, to 1st. and he said that no country has done that before. and i immediately pointed out that Israel is another good example of a rapidly growing country, and we learnt from Israel when we gained our independence too. as Israel is in a area of different beliefs and are in constant unrest. So, the uncle said that we are getting stagnant because of the lack of danger in our lives. so, i think that to him, we should grow up tumbling. =/ but, ya la, many of the youths are spoilt asses. yet, i believe theres nothing wrong in having peace and stablility but theres sth wrong if we take the peace we enjoy for granted.

then, he started asking zhihan what are the teachers in jc were teaching them physics and maths, which i felt left out because im an arts student. then in the end, he asked us, 'so u two are sci students?' then i said, im from the arts stream, and i beamed at him. then like as if he had seen a detestable object, he ignored me from then on and started bombarding zhihan with questions. then we reached the interchange and we parted at the JE mrt station.

i dont know why i made this post but, just for fun, and i can practise my GP. =D

thats all, and im sorry evina.

campus superstar finals

2007-08-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

hello hello. it's been really long since ive blogged and ive not blogged abt weiting before, as many of my friends know, shes my girlfriend! x)) and today, weiting, lian an, and his friend and i, went to watch the finals of campus superstar. but at first, she came to my house to mug with me. shes so kind, aint she? then after mugging, we left for novena and then, we had lunch. Okay, at first when i saw lian an's friend, i thought he's a lil gay or sth, maybe cos of the way he walks, and stuff. then we jus went to novena. we ate at longjohns and i got scammed by the cashier there. i ordered my own stuff, and she just doubled the quantity of whatever i ordered. she thought i buying for weiting too. but too late, when she discovered, she had no choice but to eat the food i ordered. then, i bluffed the two that weiting is 17 yrs old. and i thought they didnt believe, and it just sort faded away, then we went to cab to mediacorp.

at mediacorp, we were interviewed and i jus gave some crappy answers, then so jingzang, scared her mum discover. then, we went in, found a place to sit. then behind us, theres this fat, gay shit guy. who supports keely. okay, there is nothing wrong in supporting keely. but he screams in such a shrill manner, i think he's a girl at times, and its really loud. then he keeps complaining abt other contestants, and is just being a pest. then skip that part. weiting and i were in a nice mood until i didn pay attention to her. then she got pissed, then things sorta fall apart. x(( then she started crying and rly, that time i was damn angry at myself for making her sad. i jus want her to be happy. but yeah, she just cant stop crying. then i tried to comfort her, until we went out. and i asked for a hug, and then into uncle lees car. then we started smiling. her smile is really sweet. i love you weiting! then v paiseh cos i v jingzang cos want to cre8 a good impression of myself. then weiting tried to do some bu neng shuo de mimi stuff behind ppls back. hahah, then yeah, really had fun.

conclusion
no one is perfect, and it's because of the imperfections that make things beautiful. no matter how bad our outing turns out, in the end we will make things turn out right. =D

try the red button

2007-08-13T22:41:00.001+08:00

TRY PRESSING THE RED BUTTON! XD

king lear and harry potter

2007-07-22T13:01:00.000+08:00

alright, it's 22nd of July. a day after the launch of harry potter book 7, and two days after i watched the king lear play at esplanade. lets talk about the play, we agreed to meet at 6pm at city hall mrt station, but then, i knew that alot of ppl will be late, and so i came late too, but only jalaine was there, so as we are both hungry, we went off to eat at asian kitchen. =D then eat liao we went to meet the rest, and then walked walked at marina for awhile, we went to esplanade and took some photos.

okay, thanks to theresa and bestia, for coming to meet us even though they don have tickets. now about the play, woah, i sat at circle 1, with qixuan. fortunately it was near the stage. but then, the language they used was too erm, Victorian for me, so i didn't understand, and somemore, the theatre was so hot, then like so stuffy, and i was so tired, so somewhere in the middle of the show, i fell asleep. lik so waste money la, 45 dollars. like i wasted 40 dollars, 5 dollars is for the gunshots and the sword fights. lol. anws, the show was nice, i mean, it was a new experience for me. okay, the play had an intermission, which was ard 10pm, then i was so thirsty luh, cos of the fried rice at asian kitchen. after the intermission, we went back to our seats. then continued sleeping. really, i think like i didn read b4 coming, thats why i din understand. alright, then after the play, ard 1150pm, we went to marina for supper, then found out that it was closed, then walked one big round, then ended up eating at esplanade the hawker. then after supper, went back with nerrine, cos she's the only one who stay near me. yup that's all.

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS.

this is the best book of the series. man, i don want it to end, but, all good things come to an end. =/ the book was great. despite the high number of deaths in the book. because,

1. SNAPE IS A GOOD GUY
2. HARRY DIDN'T DIE
3. DUDLEY WAS NICE TO HARRY
4. RON DIDN'T DIE DESPITE THE RUMOURS
5. VOLDIE DIED! =D

five reasons why JK ROWLING was not nice.

1.SNAPE DIED
2. FRED DIED
3. MAD EYE DIED
4. TONKS AND LUPIN DIED
5. HARRY TYCO KILL VOLDIE. =/

but, i still love this book. and it's time to mug. bye guys. pls tag. my tagboard is so stagnant.

what happened lately.

2007-07-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

hello, common tests coming right up 2 weeks later. and i'm not really ready for it. but, ive made considerable progress in my revision recently. hohoho. anws, recently ive not blogged, and im gna blog abt what happened lately.

i'll start from the 8th of July. :D thats our anniversary, woohoo! 1 month alr! went to celebrate at marina square. and caught harrypotter the movie.

next incident that was significant to me is the realisation of the fact that i have so little time for Common Tests. dammit.

then Olympic dream, that i didn partake in.

let's set aims for CTs.
GP: A
CL: A
MA: C
HI: B
EC: C
LT: B

wa, if i get these results for ct, i'll be super happy luh. =DD

anws, i still have lots of catching up to do. ill blog another time.

bye.

get well soon. :D

i love my school life!

2007-06-28T22:25:00.000+08:00

seriously, my school life has been getting better. but grades still bad. =/ i shall blog abt how my life is better in school!

firstly, i have finished my pw written report first draft!

secondly, i nv get caught by the principal for long hair!

thirdly, i passed all my subjects! (though the grades don look nice)

these three things have made me happy. at least. well, im not a very competitive person. as in, class position doesn't matter to me. i just want to improve all my subjects by 1 grade in the common test, thats all! =D

Econs E -> D
History C -> B
Lit C -> B
GP A -> A
Chinese C -> B
Maths E -> D
PW B i happy alr!

so common test i'll get D, B, B, A, B, D! =D

good luck to me and all my peers studying for the common test! and tmr is A lvl chinese oral, all the best to all! and myself! God bless us all! =D

thanks for reading!

school is reopening......

2007-06-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

fffffffffffffffffffffffffff! tmr is the day, school reopens, have to wake up at 550am alr, no more late breakfasts, no more dota games, no more slacking ard at home, no more fun, joy and laughter. this end of the school holiday, has brought much dispair in me. firstly, this means that i can no longer say, i'll do hw later. secondly, it means that i cant sleep late already, lastly it means that cannot meet up as much as i do with her like in the holidays. i will miss her soooo much, i'll kill to see her! =/ hai, i wish that the holidays will nv end. and, since it's alr ended, happy school reopening! =DD for her, i hope u'll work hard and i will too! thanks for reading and I WON WNA RETAIN!!

bye!

photos of famine camp!

2007-06-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

the hall with no reception. =/ the place where we started our famine, and ended it there too! =D

me and wanqing! honestly, she looked nice in this photo. =D

connie, i tried to capture her sleeping picture, but she ended up turning and here it is!

wanqing emoing, even b4 the famine starts. =/
yixuan, wanqing and me! :)

me and turtle! =DD

erm, i donno her name. =/ but shes reading! =D

wanqing, me, turtle, bernard weilun and weixiang, 1 line! =D

another similar shot. =D

okok, zhanhui, bernard weilun. weixiang too!

connie and yixuan's fingers. i like connie's face. lol

random shot =/
donno what they are doing. =/

the girls, nadya is not in the pic. sry nadya and wanqing too.
the boys!

me, nadya and wanqing! omg, famine is starting!

i took this shot when i was damn hungry and i was lying on the floor. the ceiling! =D

the guy with aids! haha!

half of our family! shortie, nadya, me and bloody toe! lol

turtle, bloody toe and weixiang! lights off!

well, i must say i understood a tiny portion of what the people of third world countries felt in their lives, and im glad to have taken these photos and yeah, let them be a reminder to me and those in the camp that we have starved for 30hours and let it remind us of our blessings! =D I thank God for really blessing me and letting me be born in singapore! =D and yeah, pls don waste food! =D

thats all, thanks for reading, hope u liked it!

=D

2007-06-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

i did this test! =DD

famine camp =D

2007-06-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

hello hello. im here again, yes, not there at the sentosa post. anws, it has been 1 day since the famine and ive only been eating fastfood since the break fast. the camp was a slow camp for me even though it's only 1 and a 1/2 days, it seemed like so long la. nvm, 30 hours without food was tough. but ya, it was an achievement for me! =D 30 hours without food. firstly, the camp divided us up into many 3rd world countries, i was put into bangladesh! how ironic. and there were countries like ethiopia, cambodia, myanmar, erm, lethoso, zambia, mongolia etc. then like i formed a family with nadya, fong, jiayi (shortie) and four nepalese guys. they didn tell us their real names even after the camp. nvm that, anws, the camp really didn give us any food. only green tea, or soyabean. awww, yes, it's a famine camp. then first day, played this game, we had to like earn money to buy stuff, oh and my family had a person with aids, a blind, mute, and a handicapped guy. i was the child of the family. cool, then ya, we went to earn money. to earn money, there are 2 ways, one is to have legal jobs, another is to have illegal jobs, we banglas have only construction work to do. they racist. and illegal jobs is to sell flesh, sell organ, or deal drugs. i went to sell my flesh and became a child prostitute and i sold my liver. lol. but the game is not so fun as i expected. but it's pretty fine. next, we had talks. then ya, slping time. me bernard, turtle, fong, and weixiang. i din left anyone out did i? well, we had some life talks and was pretty cool, bernard and i saw sth explode in the room. dirty things. =/ oh ya, i din manage to slp well. cos turtle was snoring like mad. okay, bernard made an interesting point, cos fong said that the highest high u can get, was not from drugs, but from the killing of someone. and i was protesting against that. well, bernard said, theres sth higher, and thats killing yourself. =/ well, thats an interesting viewpoint. and the next day, we had breakfast of soya bean milk and some exercise. lol, the gym instructor. =/ so lame. then we went to do community service. we went to collect newspaper. at tampines. then i went crazy there, i was like talking abt food and really, u cant help but think, about your last dinner, last icecream, and blah. we were damn hungry. then collected newspapers, we went back, then like slack, then concert then brk camp!

we had our food from bk, i ate a fish burger, then went to kfc to eat chicken, the miso crunch. not as nice as i thought. then the next morning, went to meet up with weiting, after seeing her off, i went to macs for brunch and went to library to study, alone! =D then studied till 4pm, went to huayi to find her. then went to imm and had our dinner there. had bk again. =/ then blah, until now, im home blogging. thanks for reading! =D

IM A SURVIVOR OF FAMINE CAMP! =D

sentosa outing on 6th june 2007 =D

2007-06-10T07:49:00.000+08:00

yes, it's been days since ive blogged, and today im showing everyone what i did on that sentosa outing! firstly, i want to thank God for giving us the chance to go for that outing because, a day before the outing, my mum wu ya zhui, go say cfm rain one, then ask me don go, say wad weather forecast say will rain, then the next day, when i woke up, it really seemed like it was going to rain but still, i went ahead to prepare, as i stay at telok blangah, which is near harbourfront, the weather shld be abt the same as sentosa's weather pattern. yeah, woke up because of a camper's sms, and i was almost late. but anyways, i prayed for the sun as i was preparing and prayed when i was on the bus to vivo, and prayed when i was in the toilet at vivo, and prayed when i was waiting for everyone and prayed when i was on the monorail to beach station and prayed when i reached there. eventually, it didn't rain! =DD thank God for that. anws, when we reached harbourfront mrt station, i was like the first or 2nd to assemble there, then theres only zhan hui, and my stomach isn't feeling really well so i went to the toilet. and when i came out, like so many campers and facs are here. so waitwaitwait, then finally, yong hong came. yah, he was late and everyone facs and campers alike both are waiting for that bugga. =/ let me say sth about him, he was late for our meeting, then he even took the wrong train to punggol, wth. nvm that, hes still my great fren! =D then hung out with zhihan, and starhub! =D erm, and we made our way to sentosa! =DD then reached there, went to siloso beach, and straight away we chionged to the bball court, hehs, me, yingquan, zhihan, zhanhui, starhub, aaron. 6 of us, i think, we played 3v3, starhub surprised me. hes pro de lor, then he looks like some jimmy neutron. =x but yah, he's a pro. =D then play play play a girl came in, at first thought she's a camper. lol! then all along thought shes not a fac, anws, she play play play then shes our secret weapon, cos no one is allowed to block her. =x block alr, no point having her on the team alr :x kidding. next- after playing for a while, it started to drizzle, but then, in the end the rain stopped and rain stop, sky clear! haha. next, went off back to emerald pavilion, then i was like alone sitting by the beach and enjoying the breeze. =D then kelly and some of her friends came over and asked me why i didn join the rest. nice ppl. =D then, went to find zhihan, then we went to play the ball game they were playing. then until everyone went back, yah at that time, we went to 7 11 i think- to buy drinks and when we came back, we went to play volleyball! =DD erm initially i kept missing and kept hitting the ball at the girl i thought was a camper. sorry! next, went off to the waters, and oh ya, i have to highlight the fact that no one went near the waters before linda and some pioneers went ahead first! well done! then, play in the water, playplayplay, then buried some ppl in the sand, linda and a small malay boy. yah, then theres like one little boy trying to bury himself, but like no one bothered to help him, pity pity. then next played volleyball again! then dried myself, until the ground got so hot, i cant stand the floor. LOL, ignore the lame attempt. stand the floor. harhar! next, went into water, then tat time my back was burnt alr, stupid jenmey thought i was a camper initially. =/ next, suntanned with zhihan, yonghong and jason. cool luhs. then shasha came over, (grins to someone) x) we were doing sth, i forgot wad. then zhihan act cool lar! hahahaha. nvm that, then went to play in the water with bernard nare, (nare is his nick, too many bernards ard), zhihan, weiting, her friends and some other campers, sorry i only rmbed weiting. anws, play play play, then forgot alr leh, but just had lots of fun, oh ya, think we went up to play volleyball & captains ball, oh ya, met this australian 10 yr old boy, really cute, then me, zhihan, weiting, and that boy on 1 team against the others, =D then play play play, then went to a bigger court to play, then alot of ppl go back alr. but we went to play vball =) then slack ard, talked about alot of things. really nice. then went off to the pavilion, cope f3's bbq food and drinks, thanks linda, wanqing, and shasha, of ya, when i reached the pavilion, they immediately DATOU! kns, all say my head big luh. it's not big! D: nvm tt, then we went to wash up, with starhub, zhihan and the campers. yonghong too! oh ya yonghong played with us too! next. we went to vivo to makan, then we had to split. =(( family 2 came with us family 4 to carls junior, then the other family went to eat at the hawker centre. then again met up at food republic, then went talked talked, then went home. oh ya, to wanqing, i purposely smsed u on tat day to piss you off. =D hahaha. i told her that i reached home, then like shes still on the bus. sad luh. anws, thats abt all. thanks for reading, have a nice day. =DD enjoy the two photos below, they are taken by a camper, after i said, 'nice hor? the sky.' =D

2007-06-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

u know, i got invited to this kid's birthday party, then took some photos. i love the cake, it's a cookies and cream, ice cream cake! =D had two servings. and, im no paedophile! anws, look at them. who's the cutest? lol! tata~

CLAP CLAP CLAP

2007-06-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

THE CAMPERS!

cards for sale

2007-06-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

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PHOTOS!

2007-06-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

BEFORE THE CAMP, DANCE PREPS! =DD

back to blogging =D

2007-06-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since ive blogged, updates, ive come back from west zone camp, got myself hooked onto another online game, and erm, i think, there are many more taggers on the board, the dogs! =D welcome them! =) anws, really, ive been quite preoccupied these days and so i din blog! =/

so, the camp was fun, it was worthwhile having to see so many campers slowly transform, and that ive made so many new friends. okay, lets talk about the part b4 i went for camp. i can recall, fussing and stressing over 3 things, family dance, family poster, and family banners. and really, we din do much on the first few meetings, but in the end, we managed to put up a good poster, banner, and a nice family dance. come on, the posters and banners weren't magically conjured by the facs or the school yes? oh btw, the dance song was london bridge, by fergie. oh shit! XD so, the days passed real fast and before i know it, it's the camp day alr! i din really feel much excited abt the camp, but was still looking forward to it.

so, on the camp day, i was like late for camp, and i think simon liao was stressed or sth then he scolded us like mad. i mean, he's really fierce and all. so, we managed to pick ourselves up, and poof, the campers came. as far as i can rmb, i was like wondering, will the campers be like, dao, or will they be over enthu, or will they just be troublesome. soon, campers came in, and the registration began, then we asked them to sit in their lgs, and we had to go ard making them feel at home, and i just like, intro myself, and asked for their names. one of the names i can remember remembering, is augustine. lol, sounds gay, but true. and chee xin, cos cheexuan said shes like her sister. =/ then, i think was the ice breakers, the finger catching game, i don rmb who i played with, but i think i was called away for some family head meeting, so, after that was mass dance. i dno why, but the campers think they are gna kiss during the dance, or they think the dances are like salsa, or sth from dirty dancing. =x anws, cant blame them, they've remained their 'innocence' for so many years, maybe, that was their first time touching someone's hand from the opposite sex. =) anws, it was quite fun, and i think i danced with vanessa, she zi high, then i was like my usual self. not so high. oh ya, i dno why the student councillors keep asking me to smile, they say i don smile. =/ wth, im like that. what to do? then after mass dance was lunch. woohoo. i din have lunch with my campers, cos they had their hands tied up. =x and facs were standing ard. i was really proud of f4 =D they cheered louder than i had during my own O1 camp. =) claps* anws, they were mostly cooperative. while some showed that bu shuang face when they knew that they had to eat with their hands tied up. most just relented, due to peer pressure. =) then i think it's the wet games. still, not so high, but most of them were like tired after the games. then, me and zhan hui brought them to bathe. then came dinner, everyone was tired and all. so were our spirits. then came the songsinging session, i rmb myself walking with two of my more familiar campers, qairul and sandra. i got to know them, and yea, they were the more introverted ones, so i manage to talk to them, (mostly i did the talking, they merely nodded) and rushed them into the lt1. lt1 damn hot. then we went high, then emo time. i can see some crying, actually alot cried. i cried. =/ then, night games time. D: we cocked up. some miscommunication between the facs caused a cockup luh. then lg8 was stalled and din manage to play much, except the balloon game. they had fun, and i was sorta relieved. =D then rushed them back to the hall, and to slp they go. then it was the debrief. woah, i was so tired alr, then chop chop finish the brief, then we went to bathe, skali they ask for volunteers, i heard family heads. then yeah, i just had to stick with my frens to do sentry duty. scared they chao. lol. then we just waited till 2am b4 we had our shower. we bathed at pd block and woah, abit scary ar, then again chop chop, then we went to bed. slept at the stage =) nth special happened. =D

camp 2nd day: woke up, then chiong down for morning briefing. then chiong up to hall to take toiletries then washed up, went to wake our campers up. day 2 was the kinetic warfare, westzone night, and blackout day. and the ghost day. lol. firstly, blackout, then talked to campers about some messages we had to say, oh ya, b4 blackout was the prep for sth. and the talks. so, we cheered in the dark initially, then we started giving emotalks. and the educational talks abt leadership and blah. then, kinetic warfare. well, the game i enjoyed most was the tug of war. =D we trashed the opposing team =) then, everyone was wet and we had to plan for our westzone night. really was stressed as i have to collect the facs' and campers' tee. =/ then gave some wrong instructions. then, some ppl were unhappy, but still, i found out during the gathering of all families that our family was the only family that changed into the tee. =) pretty nice. then, we went on to our west zone night! oh yes, i was summoned away for a meeting again. then cheer cheer cheer. again danced with vanessa, but this time, im the high one. =D scared her lik mad. then i forgot what happened. aiya. just that we had lots of fun and again many ppl cried. then, woah, got someone possessed or sth, then damn scary la, alot of rumours spreading. oh ya, we had our bidding thing too. then alot of rumours la, then even the jie chao or who also warned us to warn our facs. say what must be careful of campers safety. then we went on to pei our campers. then they went to slp while we went to make the gifts. =D i din slp. =D cos was damn scared and all. ate a bowl of ramen then went to slack, cos everyone tired and i also tired, but din slp. then, just slack slack, until 5+ then slept for awhile. woah, then nex day, kallang kabok.we din know what to do, sc overslept then just initiative lo. =) woke campers up at 630, then brkfast, clean up, then prep to go home, actually had eweb, and had one final emotalk, then BB CAMPERS! really nice, then we went to kfc to eat. =) camp over.

next, i dwled this game recently, and i am playing it as im blogging now, on another comp. =) granado espada, friends of mine, tell me if ur playing =)

thats all, oh yes, theres an outing on 6th june, 9am to night. at sentosa, pls come! =) (for west zone campers, facs ) thanks. and have a nice day. =)

loyalty

2007-05-21T23:29:00.000+08:00

finally a positive post! =D

today, during civics, at room AR02, my civics teacher, mdm koh, taught us a lesson on loyalty. she covered many topics, like parental loyalty (filial piety), loyalty to nation (patriotism), loyalty to a football club (passion), loyalty to God (faith) look at miaochen's blog =D, loyalty to friends, loyalty to your loved ones, and etc. she highlighted the things Lim Bo Seng did, to defend his loyalties. and Mr S Rajaratnam who held friendship in high regards. anws, i wasn't really thinking much abt that, until mdm koh asked me how i felt, then i started saying abt my neighbour who had a dog, then whenever i went home, the dog will bark at me. it's like that dog is loyal to his owner, my neighbour, and regards his home as his land to defend, and im like the oppressor. so i concluded that we should be like dogs. or, the govt believes that we shld be like dogs. (that was some crap explanation) and then, i went into further thought. and just then, siewping said sth like love and loyalty. then that struck me. Loyalty is like the main set, while patriotism, filial piety, faith, passion, are all forms of loyalty. anws, thats not my point. then what i felt was so heartening is that my blog, which was underfire by some anon taggers, was defended by my friends in my class. im really really glad. it's like, so nice and 'loyal' of them to defend my views. thank you all! btw, alex isn't out 07a01's alex, he's arex the thaiger. sci stream one. =D yeah, so once more, THANKS! =DDDD

im really not being sarcastic.

the tonnes of work

2007-05-20T13:39:00.000+08:00

i think what i blogged abt ytd was abit vague, but i wont rectify it anws. and im blogging abt my amt of work i must finish.

1. study for GP content test
2. study for maths test
3. do zuo wen
4. study for history test
5. plan the dance (but with the help of my camp family members)
6. help to paint the banners and poster of my camp family.

looks like i underestimated the pressure of being a family head. but no point regretting it now. so, i must go, study!

i will go mad one day.

2007-05-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

this blog post pends to someone ive interacted in jjc but again it has really nth to do with anyone from my class, nor any of my campmates. sometimes when your high status in an area of expertise gets overtaken by someone else, and that someone else isn't as up to mark as you. u know, i almost lost my cool when he was doing something to my friend and it was within my line of sight. he mocked my religion's practice. it was during my fac's camp and if i got off my seat and chionged at him, i'd lose my chance to be a fac in the west zone camp. he also pissed me off before he made a mockery of my religion's practice. that's the expertise part im talking about. nvm if u don understand. but please stop me if i lose my cool and go ahead to assault him. I HATE YOU! oh, i have to see this bastard for 2-3hours every tuesday. dammit.

(sorry taggers, im really pissed at this person, so i just want to vent my frustrations on this entry instead of bitching it away with my peers. if i do i'd say his name so, pls don react too strongly to my entry. thanks.)

IM SORRY MOMMY!

2007-05-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

im so sorry mother! it's been a day after mother's day and im dedicating this entry to all mother's in the world. how kind yes? firstly, i have to address those people who when in a conflict, insult the mother to make the latter angry. for example, FCUK your MOTHER, YOUR MOTHER BLACK, YOUR MOTHER NO HAIR, YOUR MOTHER DIE, YOUR MOTHER this, your mother that. =/ some more ppl start this YO MOMMA SO FAT series of jokes. i don deny that ive used this form of abuse when i cant get a grip on my emotions, and so i commit such mistakes. so now, in this entry, i shall declare to all of my friends' mothers that IM SORRY and i would not try to use such abuse on anyone already. IM SORRY MOTHERS! i guess thats the end of my entry. happy belated mother's day!

the internet that produced these people.

2007-05-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

today, im going to blog about the internet and the kind of people it has created. this post is directed towards no one and any resemblance to anyone is purely coincidental and bears no malice. thank you.

firstly, i want to blog about TWITS! yes, twits. i define it as people who name themselves :'missyDEAD, princess, miss, and many more, just go friendster and u can see.' these people lubx tuh type iNn sUch aN anNoYiNg maNnEr. then they think it's very cute and kawaii. then these people will go edit their photos with the fruits of technology that brings them PHOTOSHOP. these people will make their looks so much different from the reality. then, very often people are mislead by these distorted looks. alright, then, these twits are often branded as ah lians who love techno songs which have totally no meaning. in my opinion, they are just plain empty. they have to make their words online look flashy to make people read them instead of the content. but anws, it is so annoying to read those prose. =/

next, im going to blog about anon taggers. these anon taggers like to jump from blog to blog and tag remarks which can help or worsen the situation. knowing some anon taggers myself, the taggers actually have good intentions, however, due to their misunderstanding of the situation, they tend to worsen the situation as they will complicate matters for the blogger and the readers alike. so i believe that people should not hide under the anonymity. since they want to make a stand and speak up, they should identify themselves before making their stand. besides, it's basic manners to identify your self before saying sth to a stranger yes? so, come out of your closet! and speak up, with your names on! =D

thirdly, im covering those addicts. there are two by products of the internet that i want to talk about in this post, porn, and online gaming. firstly, porn has created the abyss of darkness in the internet. it's often regarded as some forbidden zone by parents and the government alike. this phenomena has been since on even before the internet was invented, but, the internet made things alot easier for those sex addicts who cant score in reality to have a haven to lie in. next is the internet games. look at maplestory, gunbound, dota and WOW. these have created a place where nerds or people who have no life flourish in their virtual life. theres no doubt that some games can improve your hand eye coordination, however, many people tend to bully or intimidate people online just because they are superior in the games. these people have no life. some top gamers in maplestory are also lifeless. all they do is to gain experience and look, they are the top. and they would stop at nothing to remove opposition. so these people should get a life.

lastly, im going to talk about bloggers. there are many types of bloggers. like the mr brown, xiaxue, tartaric, these people blog about different things. some blog about their sex life, some talk about the government, some talk about their aimless lives, and some, like me, blog about the ups and downs of my life. however, this bloggers will often find themselves under siege because they blogged sth which is not agreed upon by others. my friend's blog is mainly about her religion, then she is now under pressure from those anon taggers which disagree with her view. i believe it's the problem of freedom of speech. u can say about me, i can say about you. and it just keeps going on. some people like me, blog about their daily lives, then some of my grievances will make some people unhappy, and thus, people tag and scold back. and it just keeps getting worse. oh yes, another case study of a blogger who got into trouble was my friend, tan yan shan. he blogged sth about what the principal said and added some of his personal opinions into it. then he almost got expelled but now he's safe and sound. i don wish to dwell into this but, whoever reported him, pls think whether what you did was a cowardly act or a heroic act.

lastly, i just wish to say that yes, we are in a democratic society, we have freedom of speech, but take responsibility with what u say and don hide in anonymity, because what you say would not be taken seriously with. as compared to taggers who are brave enough to tag with their names. thank you for reading. =)

Methods to Blog!

2007-05-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

im back to blogging. now after all these things that happened, i have learnt how to blog properly on how to blog without getting you into trouble. =D

firstly, if u want to blog abt sth that happened in school. u can go like
'today, i went to school. i studied and went to the library, i borrowed two books. then i went home on bus 198. i saw my friend on the bus. we talked. then i reached home. i feel so glad to be home.' like this, u wont offend anyone, ppl wont find your blog offensive, and most imptly, ppl wont scold you for scolding ppl. well, after all thats what u did.

secondly, if you want to blog about sth u did with your boy/girlfriend, u can go like
'today we went out, we met at xxxplace, then we went to eat, then we went walking around the shopping mall or the park. then we went home by walking/taxi/bus.' u see ah, in this conservative society, u cannot say u held hands, hugged, or kissed. this way, ppl wont accuse you of having premature relationships which people might use that entry against you and tell the higher authorities.

thirldly, if u want to blog about your friends, this one is the hardest. cos it's your friends who read your blog. so u must say
'today i went to school and talked to tom. tom very funny cos he told me jokes. i laughed. then in class, mary asked the teacher some questions. i was paying attention so i heard the questions. she is so nice to help the class ask questions. then during history, we had a discussion. then amily was so smart she answered the teacher's questions. then i feel that she is very clever. then during break, i ate noodles while mary ate nasilemak, while tom ate chicken rice. he so nice offer me rice. cos i eating noodles. =D then we dismissed alr, i went home with jack, he told me that he sick, so i say take care. then i took 198 with jack. then he stopped at jurong east. then i stopped at the interchange.' ah, this is the way to blog. like this, your blog will not offend people anymore! people wont even read your blog! isn that a great way to blog.

so i hope people will learn from this blogging formula and not get into any trouble over blogging. cos we wouldn't want to abuse technology right? then maybe the government can create a 'healthy blogging' campaign, then teach us how to blog in a better way. =D so i hope that more people will blog with this new formula. thank you!

i want peaceful coexistence!

2007-05-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

yes, it's time for peace so that the whole world would prosper. yes, im referring to my pw. i wont fail my pw, i might not get a bad pw grade, but i might, as a team member fail to play my part in this project. so, it's time for me to do sth about this. firstly, i would like to thank whoever acrobatic reader is, for the enlightenment, he/she has given me, and that really, i don think anyone betrayed me. The only things im bothered with right now is this attitude problem i have. this will follow me even after i start working. it's not about the wrong company, i realise, it's more of the wrong mindset i have towards my companions. okay, i admit i was harsh when i said about the previous previous blog entry. and actually, i don even think ppl would read them, cos of my poor response at the tagboard everytime. so i usually blog about things and just let my anger wear off. and thats it. im fine. so, i have to say sth to all of my team members in the pw grp. i have nothing against your ideas, but the way we phrased our opinions were not appropriate. so this led to the situation we are in now. and vic, i guess uve misunderstood my blog entry. when i said about waking up, i really meant it for myself. so it wasn what u thought it was. really, we should sit down and talk calmly over all our problems. i don even know how come we our relationship can deteriorate from the time we were like at the orientation camp. i just hope that we could resume our friendly relationship and work tgt on this project, then we can do well for pw. after all ,we are more familiar to each other since we've been through the pae. so, i wish and i ask of you to give me and yourself this chance for us to just work things out. i hope we could settle on a resolution and eventually do well for pw. i mean every word that is in this entry. so i ask for your forgiveness and hope that we can remain good friends even after this pw. thanks and sorry for the trouble. =)

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